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"Jennie, I'm jealous"

Sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko dahil sa mga salitang yun galing kay Lisa. Hindi ko alam pero magkahalong saya, kilig at takot ang nararamdaman ko. Oo, takot dahil alam kong dahil sa mga narinig ko ngayon, mas lalong hindi ko na mapipigilan yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Ilang buwan kong pinaghirapang itago ang nararamdaman kong ito at sinubukang ibaling sa ibang tao pero sa huli hindi mo talaga maloloko ang sarili mo. Yes, I've been dating Miguel a couple of times pero aaminin ko I didn't develop any romantic feelings for him. It's still her. It's still Lisa.

Iniangat ko ang ulo niya para makita ko ang mukha niya dahil kanina pa siya nakayuko at hindi ako magawang tignan sa mata.

"Lisa look at me" I begged.

The moment na nagtama ang mga mata namin ay di ko na napigilan pa ang sarili ko. I kissed her. I kissed her hard hoping that she would return it. And a smirk formed my lips when she never failed me and kissed me back with the same intensity. Her lips were so soft and so addicting and I could no longer find the courage to stop. This is wrong yet this feels so good. She grabbed my waist to pull me closer to her until I found myself straddling her lap. I cupped her face to deepen the kiss while feeling her hands slowly exploring my body. Then a moan escaped my mouth when she cupped and played with my right breast. Her lips left mine and she started kissing me down my neck. She sucked my weak spot that made me moan one more time. Bakit parang alam na alam niya kung nasaan ang kahinaan ko? Her kisses went south and she's now kissing the valley of my breast. I almost lost my sanity and arched my back pulling her harder to my breast and I almost went crazy when I felt her tongue slipping on the side of it almost reaching my nipple.

"Fuck" I cursed.

That's it. I can't take this anymore. I need more. I stopped her from kissing my breast and I almost laugh ng ng bigla siyang sumimangot. Mukhang nadeprived na bata. So, I smiled at her and kissed her on the lips before pulling my shirt up, undressing myself. Her eyes widened at the sight of my boobs right in front of her. I can even see how she swallowed hard in anticipation. Natawa na lang ako sa reaksyon niya.

"Damn! You're so sexy, Jen" she muttered enjoying the view in front of her.

Kumunot ang noo ko ng bigla siyang umiwas ng tingin sa akin.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked cupping her face so I can see it.

"This is wrong. You don't deserve this. I don't deserve you, Jen" a tear escaped her eyes and that broke my heart. I can't blame her for feeling this way because this is exactly what I feel. Pero anong magagawa ko na sa maling tao ako nagkagusto? I did my best para labanan yung nararamdaman ko. But the more na iniiwasan ko, the more na mas lumalalim yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

"Do you like me?"

"I do but... but---" I cut he off from talking by putting my index finger on her lips.

"Shhh... That's all that matters" I said and started kissing her one more time.

Bahala na. I tried to move on from her but I failed. This time, susubukan ko namang ipaglaban siya.

"What are we now?" she asked after our mind blowing sex.

Her head is on my chest and she's drawing circles on my stomach while I am playing on her hair. We're both still naked but we don't mind.

"I don't know? All I know is that... I'm happy and I want you" I answered.

She look up so our eyes could meet. She smiled at me and placed a sweet and soft kiss on my lips.