His Last Hope ｜ A Lee Felix FF (sometimes 18+) 《COMPLETED》

『Chapter 48』

"Hey honey" a far away voice sounded through Felix's ears. "You've done it, Lix. You've done it!" Done...done what? He asked. He was way too confused to think. Who was that person? What were they doing wherever he was? He tried to speak, but it didn't work. He tried to open his eyes, which also wouldn't happen. Had he died? Please don't be dead! He begged. Everything around him seemed warm and cold at the same time- way too warm and way too cold to be comfortable. "You've done it." The voice kept saying, now putting their hand on his cheek. Don't touch me! He again wanted to say and managed to slightly push away. Only when the voice had stopped speaking, he noticed the weird feeling on his belly- like something was drilling into it. What had they done to him? Had he been kidnapped?! It kept quiet for some time, until he heard some machines beep and a few voices talk. "He should wake up very soon, it's been a little over a day. That's normal though, considering how many surgeries he's already went through. His body is probably starting to react to the narcotics differently. We'll just have to keep an eye on it." A man's voice said. Where was he, for God's sake! "He-" something finally came out of his mouth. The hand, that had previously touched him, ran their fingers through his hair, whispering something. "Don't" Felix said and got a bit angry that a stranger was touching him like that. "Felix it's alright, you won't get hurt, darling." The voice said. Am I supposed to know who it is? He thought. It was obvious that this person knew him, but the voice couldn't be more unfamiliar to him. "Who.. who's there?" He said out loud and heard a quiet gasp coming from his right. Had he hurt that person? Was he really supposed to know who they were? "Felix.. don't you... Don't you know my voice?" "No.. I'm sorry..." So he was supposed to know that person. "Felix open your eyes and look if you know me or not." They said and he did so. Lix looked at where the voice was coming from. It was a short, Asian girl. A very pretty Asian girl. Even though he couldn't recognise her, he started smiling and knew his face was going all red. Wow. Maybe I can ask her on a date?  "Do you know who I am now? What's my name?" She asked. "I'm sorry but I've never seen you before, ma'am... I don't know your name but I would very much appreciate it if you told me." He smirked, but when he noticed the horror in the young woman's eyes, he became sad too. "You..you really... Stop your little games, it's not funny." She said, assuming he was joking. "I really don't know who you are! Why would I be playing a game with you if I don't even know you?!" Felix protested. Was he being rude? "Felix, I'm Lina! Do you remember me?" Lina asked. That's a nice name, and it fits her, too. But no, he didn't recognise her or the name. "I'm sorry Lina, I really really don't know you. I don't even know my name apart from that you were calling me Felix, right? I don't even know what I look like!" He explained and the stranger started to cry. "Please tell me this is all a joke!" She said and covered her face with her hands. "No no no! Don't cry! Do.. do you want a hug? I love hugs you know." He said and opened his arms. It seemed like he was supposed to know Lina, so he assumed it wouldn't be weird to give her a hug. She almost jumped in his arms, wrapping her's around Felix's body. It felt good hugging her and it wasn't strange- like he'd done it a million times before. Lina kept crying like that for about 10 minutes, until she stopped. "Felix... That's your name. Felix Lee. You're from Sydney but your mum is Korean. I'm... I'm Lina Park. I'm from Korea too but I grew up here in Sydney. And... I'm your girlfriend." Well, I did ask her on a date apparently. "I gotta say I've got a pretty good taste." He said and laughed, wiping his hand over the girl's back. "Hehe, so you like what you see?" She asked, pushed away and looked at him. Felix proudly nodded, admiring her. If she was his girlfriend, then it wouldn't be weird to..touch her, right? He put his hand on Lina's cheek and the woman smiled. "Aww. So... Do you want me to tell you a bit about, well, yourself?" She asked. It obviously sounded very weird, but he nodded. "So, you're 18 yeast old, your birthday is September 15 2000, you used to go to a Catholic school and were on a dance team with a few of your friends. We both actually were best friends for like 12 years before we became a couple. By the way, we're actually engaged, you proposed to me. Well, and.. two days before my 17th birthday you had a car accident and have been in a wheelchair since. That's why you're in the hospital room. You got a feeding tube, and now.. yeah now we're here." Felix thought it was very interesting, yet weird, hearing about his life, and he was eager to ask questions. Where was his dad? She didn't know. Who ran him over? Again, she didn't know. What was his favourite food? Vegemite sandwich, apparently. And sooooooooo many more. Lina couldn't answer every single one, but most of them. Just by talking to her for a bit over 20 minutes, he realised how much they had to love each other. Sure, she was hot- but was it real love? He assumed it was, they were engaged after all. "Do I tell you that I love you a lot? Like do I do it multiple times a day or..?" He asked and the girl giggled. "You do tell me a lot, yeah. I do too! So: I love you, honey." She said. What's a cute nickname I can give her? He thought. "I love you too, princess. I love you so much!" He said and pulled his girlfriend into his arms. It really didn't feel weird, having her head lie on his lap. If he could kiss her? He just went for it. It felt great! They really loved each other. "It's really strange, like, I don't remember knowing you, but it's not weird to hug or kiss you. Actually, I could keep doing it the entire day long. Did we ever have.. the thing with three letters?" He asked, hoping that the girl would know what he was referring to. Lina blushed and nodded. Fuck. I don't remember my first time.. maybe we can- no! I just met her... He was thorn. On one side, they were a couple, but on the other side, they were strangers. I'll just pretend I.. I remember her. "I love you so much. I never wanna leave you alone again.. I'm so sorry I didn't recognise you." He said and kissed the girl again. She buried her head in his belly, but quickly pulled away because she felt something. "Oh I'm sorry, I forgot about your new tube. Shall we try it out?" Li said. "Before we do that" Lix interrupted "I wanna look at myself in the mirror. I don't even know what I look like!"
The girl got a small handmirror and in no-time, Felix saw himself for what he thought was the first time. He looked okay- and had a lot of freckles! "Look at how cute my freckles are! Oh my god I love them!!!" He exclaimed and squeaked. His girlfriend laughed and kissed his cheek. "Haha, I know, they're probably the cutest physical thing about you! Actually, you used to think they're ugly only like a week ago, but me and our friends got you to like them again." How could I think they're ugly? They're literally so cute! "Well, I love them now. But not as much as I love you." He said, making both of them laugh. Was his behavior believable? He deeply hoped so. Even if he really couldn't remember Lina, or everyone else in his life, he didn't want them to worry. He didn't want them to feel weird around him. It was Felix who had lost his memory, so it should be him who has to suffer the effects, not the people in his life. It shouldn't be the people whom he seemed to love most in his life- it should be him. And it was him. "Felix~ I asked you a question~" his girlfriend asked and hugged him from behind. He just loved the feeling! "What did you ask, honey?" "I asked if you wanted to have the Formula the doctor gave us or if you wanna eat something else." She repeated. Since it was the first time using the feeding tube, they decided to go for the formula. "I'll have to take off my shirt every time now, don't you like that?" He asked the girl as they were preparing him- yes, he was helping to 'prepare' himself to literally be fed. "Haha, I'd like it more if there was a different reason for it, don't you think?" They agreed. Felix reached down to feel how big the tube actually was, but he found something different. He found abs. A six-pack to be exact. He knew that he used to dance, but that wasn't something you could get abs from! Had he been working out as well? "Felix I asked if it was okay to start now." Lina said again, also saying that he had missed her question again. "Oh yeah go ahead. It's not gonna hurt, right?" It seemed weird, but he was scared that it could hurt. He didn't seem like someone that could cope well with pain. "It won't, because I won't actually poke you or anything. And if it does, just say something. Here we go!" She said and started, as Lix carefully watched the formular being pressed through a thin tube and into his stomach. It didn't hurt but it felt kinda weird. Well, of course it did. It was his first time using a feeding tube after all. "It doesn't hurt, right?" "Nope it doesn't, it's a bit weird but still alright." He said, covering his eyes with the palm of his hand. There was one thing that was constantly on his mind, yet he could never remember what it was. It would be there for a second and then vanished again. He also noticed that he couldn't stay focused anymore and got distracted easily. Or had Felix always been like this? No, no he hadn't. He seemed like someone who would be very concentrated all of the time. "Do you still want more or are you full?" The girl asked as the formula ran out. "I'm full, thank you. Can we cuddle now?"