His Last Hope ｜ A Lee Felix FF (sometimes 18+) 《COMPLETED》

『Chapter 27』

Lina was sitting in class, barely paying attention to the teacher. It was her boyfriend's last week to live, so how could she be expected to pay attention to the lesson? Knowing Felix would die was worse enough, bot not knowing how and when it would happen, was a hundred times worse. In case she got a call, the school allowed her to go outside and even go home, in case she had a mental breakdown. „Okay, so, please calculate 5533 divided through 2- Lina, is that your phone?" Ms Jones' gaze softened, once a phone started ringing. The teenager checked, and it was hers. She excused herself and went outside, hesitantly picking up. It was the hospital, that's for sure. „Hello?" „Hey... Li.." Felix' quiet and husky voice said through the phone and a wave of relief shot through the girl's body. „Lix, how are you?" „I'm about to be intubated 'cause of my breathing problems... I can't..breathe when.. I sit up." „It's okay, take your time, don't talk so fast, it won't make anything better."„I know. I'm..just afraid 'cause..it will hurt.. The nurses say..we can wait for you. But you..have to be quick.." „I'll be there right away, hang in there!" She ran back inside, explained everything to the teacher, and ran to the hospital. It was ten blocks away, but she was there in less than ten minutes. When she arrived in her boyfriend's room, he was hooked to multiple machines, but still not intubated. She ran to him and sat down on a chair next to his bed. Lix was all cold and sweaty, shaking a lot. He was on such a delirium already, it didn't even seem like he noticed Li was there and holding his hand. Only after some time, he looked and smirked at her. „Hey you little smirk. Yeah, that makes you happy. You little idiot, scaring your fiancé like that." she laughed and streaked his sweaty wet hair out of his face. A team of doctors came into his room. „How are you feeling?" a really young, male doctor asked. „Bad.. My chest..is tight." Felix barely answered until his chest stopped rising and falling. „We've waited too long, he's not breathing!" the same doctor exclaimed and started doing cpr. Lina was quickly taken out of the room by the same young nurse who removed her boyfriend's stitches some months earlier. Had they really waited too long? Was it going to be her fault her fiancé died? „Will he make it?" she asked, making the medic shrug, then shaking her head slightly. „Is it my fault?" „No, it's not. Don't worry about that." The woman explained while the teen started to cry. „Can I go in now? I want to hold his hand." „It's fine, the doctors need their space to help him as well. You can hold his hand later." The sounds coming from the room suddenly stopped, Li's sobs being the only sound in the whole hallway. „I made him promise he won't die.." the girl whispered, not caring whoever heard her. Suddenly, there were quick footsteps in the hall, rushing towards them. When Lina looked up, she saw Hyunjin who had already crouched down in front of her. „Is he...?" the boy asked while pulling his friend closer to him. „Hyunjin, I don't want to lose him!" „I know, me neither.." „I'm afraid I can't love anyone after him anymore..."„Shh, It'll be okay.. Just cry, I don't care." And she did. For what felt like hours. Until a doctor came to them. „Did he make it?" Lina immediately blurted out, standing up. „Yes, we intubated him fast enough. He's awake, but.." the medic tried to explain, but Li was too fast and already in her boyfriend's room. It looked quite scary, seeing Felix with a huge blue tube in his mouth, but she didn't care. „Hey, Lix.. I don't know if you can hear me, but I think you can. I'm too scared to touch you right now, so...just imagine that I'm kissing you. I know it's hard.. I know you're not that fragile, but you look like a really tiny baby.. I could swear you got shorter. I know I talk too much." She finally brought up the courage to touch his hand. At first, he jerked away, but then grabbed her hand again. „It must be horrible for you..you can't talk.. I'll be quiet now.."

„No! You are the only thing that keeps me alive, keep talking!" Felix wanted to yell at her for thinking she was getting on his nerves. He would've loved to just pull out the tube in his mouth, not caring if he suffocated after doing it. He hated being like this and wouldn't have cared if he had died. Lina was right, it was horrible being like this. He couldn't talk, felt like he wasn't breathing, and couldn't even see if Lina was still there or not. Luckily enough he fell unconscious before they could intubate him so he didn't have to go through that kind of pain. If his fiancé thought he couldn't hear her? He was really clear in his mind! He couldn't say that he could hear the girl, or that he was there at all. He tried, made a lot of high pitched noises, when it worked, he started humming a deep melody. „That's beautiful, hun." „You're beautiful!" he wanted to yell again, but just kept humming. „Mh mmmhm, mhmhhhmhmm" Felix kept repeating this melody, until Lina also joined in. „Hyunjin's outside as well.. Do you like him? I certainly do. Not like that, but as a friend. I think he's a really nice guy, you're nicer though. Sorry that I keep talking about Hyunjin, I just don't know what to talk about. That's funny, right? We've been together for I think over two years now, and I don't know what to talk about with you. Oh, do you remember that one time we were at cronulla Beach with my parents and Mark? Mark fell off a boat, if I remember correctly. I skipped school for you, so you better survive this. I'm just joking, though... You know, it's hard to decide. I know that when you're dead, you don't suffer anymore, and you can walk around in heaven again. But your life now isn't that bad. I'm sorry to always say that, it's true though. I'm sure you don't want to accept it, but it's a fact that your life hasn't changed that much.."  when she stopped talking, Felix was taken out of his little dream world, feeling nothing. He was on strong, very strong, pain medication and painless for the first time in a while.

After about five hours, a doctor came in again. „We're going to remove the tube to see if he can breathe on his own again. You.. Can just stay here." the man said to Lina, who grabbed her fiancé's hand. „Okay, Felix, when I say 'now' you'll take a deep breath and I'll simply pull it out, Okay? It's going to be a bit weird, but just try to breathe normally as soon as the tube is out." the man advised. After preparing some other things, he gave the signal. The boy took a deep breath, probably the deepest he ever took in his life, and the tube was pulled out. It was just as the medic said. Breathing was weird at first, but it worked and his chest wasn't tight anymore. „Oh woah" he said in a kind of high but still husky voice, making everyone laugh. „Holy, my voice sounds funny." he said and cleared his throat. „You can kiss me now, Lina. I'm not fragile." he almost joked and shortly after, his girlfriend did exactly that. When the doctor was gone, Felix finally had the courage to say what had been bothering him for the whole week. „Every time I fall asleep, I hope that I go to bed as a cripple and someone perfectly healthy wakes up. Someone like the old me." He explained while forcing himself to keep the smile on his face. „I'm happy that you shared that with me. I hope that will happen preeeeetty soon." the girl laughed. Everything seemed perfect if Lina was happy. „Of course."