His Last Hope ｜ A Lee Felix FF (sometimes 18+) 《COMPLETED》

「Chapter 57」

People. That's all Felix could see beneath him. Tens, if not hundreds of thousands of people staring up at him as he stood on a giant stage, all of the spotlights on him. "Wow." He said, it echoing through the stadium before every single person in the crowd started cheering. Some were just chanting, but some were screaming his name at the top of their lungs, trying to get his attention. "T-thanks for c-coming." He stumbled, the crowd growing louder with every word that left his mouth. Suddenly, music started playing. It was HERO from MonstaX, the only song he could just barely remember some moves of. His body started moving automatically, him nailing every single little detail of the choreography. "FELIX FELIX!!" The crowd yelled the whole time, holding light sticks or signs with his name into the air for him to see. Some were written in English, some in Korean or other foreign languages. To his surprise, he could read and understand all of the Korean signs just like the English ones. Wow, that's a cool dream. He thought once the musik stopped and the crowd began clapping and screaming again. The next song was Hold on by Chord Overstreet, a song that he couldn't dance to. Instead, he sang. His deep voice fit perfectly with the slow and sad melody, him hitting every single note. It was the best dream he'd had yet. Suddenly, everything went black and he could feel someone shaking him, while also calling his name multiple times. After opening his eyes, he found it were Mark and Hoshu. "Eyo Felix wake up! We have to practice, dickhead." Mark said and slapped his friend, getting slapped back right away. Lix stretched and then got up. Patrick and Ryan were also there, sitting on the floor as they talked about something. "Another cool dream" Felix said out loud, having everyone look at him in confusion. "Have you gone crazy? Has it finally happened?" Patrick asked and blurted out laughing, getting hit on the shoulder by the boy next to him. The two soon were on top of each other, battling in the most childish way ever. The other three dance team members laughed and Lix decided to join their little fight, trying to seize the moment as good as he could. "Felix you're fucking heavy! Get off!" Patrick protested and tried to push the boy off, but he failed. "I'll tell your dad if you don't get off!" He immediately obeyed, sitting on the floor in shock. So he had a dad in this dream, interesting. It wasn't new that he dreamed of his father, it was one of the most common things he dreamed. Just that his friends said something about his father, that was new. He assumed that he dreamed of his real dad every time, since it was always the same guy. "How are you, Felix?" A stranger's voice said and Felix's vision went black again.
He woke up and sighed, being annoyed that someone interrupted his dream. "What..." He growled, not even bothering to look at who it was. "Uh I forgot my leather jacket here yesterday and I was just gonna pick it up and say hi, I didn't know you were still sleeping." Chris explained and giggled. "Oh, hi..." Lix mumbled and pressed his head back into his pillow. "Sorry, I overate, I'm really tired right now." He explained as his older friend chuckled. "You're also holding my hand." He swiftly replied, slightly squeezing their hands together. But 'Fox' didn't care, he just wanted to go back to sleep. "I'll go-" "No, stay." Lix pulled his older freind's hand onto his chest, now holding it with both hands. "Is my mum still there?" He quietly asked, for some reason barely being able to breathe. "I don't think so, no..." He burst out crying. Why would she break her promise again?! Chris tried to get him to calm down, but nothing would work. Even when Lina came in as well and hugged him, the pain wouldn't go away. It soon turned into physical pain, his heart felt like it was being ripped out of his chest. "Why did she leave?!" He asked as tears streamed down his face like waterfalls once again. "It was really late and then she decided to leave. If you'd woken up again then maybe she would've stayed a bit longer but she was tired as well." "She could've slept in my bed with me!" "Lix she had to go home, there's a surprise waiting for you when you come back to her house." She explained and his crying stopped at last. "What's the surprise?"He asked as he pulled away, voice still shaky and raspy. "Well, I guess you'll have to see for yourself."
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"You got a puppy?!!" Felix screamed as there were quiet high pitched barks coming from a room of his mum's house. He hadn't been here for so long, he couldn't remember the layout at all. He smiled widely and wheeled where the sound was coming from. The dog was very fluffy, and very small.



He picked it up carefully, rubbing his cheek against the soft fur of this little cutie. He had wanted a dog, or just any animal, his whole life, but it didn't really click that he had one yet. It was somehow weird that his mum would get them a pet now, when he was never home. Home... This place didn't feel like that anymore. Yes, he had lived in this house his whole life, but still it felt weird. He remembered nothing about it. He didn't know where any rooms were, he didn't remember where his own room was, just nothing. "Nice place, dude." Chris said from behind him and nuzzled Felix's head with his hand. The puppy was now sitting on the boy's lap, it's tongue sticking out. "His name is Hulk." Lina said from the doorway, chuckling at the small ball of fluff. "Hulk?! More like fluffy." Lix corrected and turned around, holding the little one tight to his belly. "So this is the kitchen..." He quietly said and the others raised their eyebrows. "What?" Lix asked and frowned at them. "This is your house why don't you know that this is the kitchen, mate?" Chris asked and his friend shrugged. "I'm seeing this place out of a new perspective for the first time, everything looks so big." He explained and became sad. This shouldn't happen. This shouldn't be real. THIS should be the dream, not the ones of him being on stage. The sad parts of his life should be a horrible horrible dream, that would be gone when he wakes up. "Please tell me I'm dreaming." He said out loud and went through his hair with his right hand while the left one still pressed the little dog close. "Yeah, you're DAYDREAMING darling." Lina teased and everyone laughed.

"Bye mum! I'll be careful!" Felix called out as he was about to go for a stroll around the block with Li and Chris. The woman nodded over to her son and told them to go. "Yo this neighbourhood looks so good, how can you afford to live here? Not to sound rude btw." The other boy asked and his younger friend shrugged. "My mum works very hard. Also that's why I really wanted to do something like soccer professionally, because then I could help her out with the money I earn. But I'm kinda happy that I can't do it anymore, these soccer players have to go through some crazy stuff I'll tell you." They laughed a little bit. "Yeah true. By the way do you still like dancing?" "What kind of a question is that? Of course I do! I LOVE dancing! But do I look like I can dance anymore?" Felix asked and wheeled a bit faster, turning around to look at his friends. "Yes." Chris said and Lix froze. Was this a joke? "Yes? YES?!" He yelled back and the others stopped, looking at him in confusion. "Yeah. Don't tell me you've never seen those wheelchair dances on YouTube." He shrugged and continued wheeling through the park they had just entered. "What? Do you wanna dance or not?" His friend kept asking and asking until 'Fox' snapped. "Dude I mean REAL dancing! Not just your arms, but Ur entire body has to move! And trust me, with enough practice I can get better than the both of you at dancing, just wait!" He spat back at them and went over to a bench, sitting down on it as he kicked the wheelchair so it fell over. "Lixie that's not like you." The only girl said and sat down next to her boyfriend, who was about to break down at this point. "Well it's his fault, not mine." He responded and narrowed his eyes at the oldest, who seemed sorry. "It's not his fault that you're in a bad mood. Is it because we didn't take the puppy with us?" Li asked as she rubbed Felix's shoulder, holding his arm at the same time. "No!" He answered and pushed the girl away so hard, she almost landed on the ground. "It's because of that! That thing that's ruining my whole fucking life! Do you think I wanna live like this? No! So I better be allowed to be angry or else..." He yelled while pointing at the wheelchair, just wishing it would disappear right now. He pushed himself up, it worked this time, and took a few steps away from the others. He wanted to be alone, where he couldn't hurt anyone or get hurt himself during his anger fits. "Felix don't! What if you fall?" Chris called out to him, the boy turning around to face his friends. He hadn't noticed how far away he had already gotten, he could barely read the expressions on their faces as they looked so small from where he was standing. Lix wanted to go back to them, realising how he had just stupidly wandered off, but it was like there was an invisible wall pushing him away. No matter how much he wanted to, his legs wouldn't move towards them anymore. Felix stared at the wheelchair, it was still on its side, having been untouched by the others. He wanted to go back in it and just forget everything from the past one or two minutes had ever happened. But even this object was out of his reach. So he walked away. Yes, it hurt being on his feet, of course it did, but what was even more painful was the thought of knowing his girlfriend and best friend were on their own somewhere in the park. He managed to reach an alley somewhere before he collapsed.