His Last Hope ｜ A Lee Felix FF (sometimes 18+) 《COMPLETED》

『Chapter 30」

„Can you still feel this?" a nurse said and poke Felix' leg with tweasers. They were going to do a bit bigger operation, but again it was just local anesthesia. The boy squeezed Lina's hand, who was sitting on a chair next to him. „Yes, I can." he explained. A few minutes later, they did the same test again with the same results. They did it a few times again, every time with the same outcome. Until he decided to lie and say the anesthesia worked. The boy was certain he could bear the pain, no matter how strong it is. When they started cutting open his knee though, he realised he had made a huge mistake. It was hell. He felt like his leg was being eaten by dingos or something like that. A tear started rolling down his cheek and he felt that he was about to have a Panik attack. „You still feel it, don't you?" Lina whispered into his ear, again making him forget everything else. Her voice was like a safety call. Everything seemed good as long as she was with him. „No, I really don't, honey. I'm just a bit scared in case IF I feel something, alright? I'm definetly fine." he lied and put on a huge smile. He knew she didn't believe what he said, but it was worth trying. Felix forced himself to stop crying and just look at his girlfriend, trying to ignore what was just happening to his leg. „I wonder what our children will look like, once we have them. Like, in five years or something like that." he started fantasizing over their future. „I think if we have a girl she'll look more like you and a boy would look more like me. And I'm sure he would get such a deep voice as you." they started giggling. Felix really wanted his children to have a normal dad. A dad who didn't need a wheelchair. A dad who was taller than them and could carry them around. A dad they could play normal games like soccer and handball with. „Let's have a baby when all this is over." he suggested, earning a nod from Lina. He knew though, that if they did as he said, they would probably never have children. There was no chance he could walk normally again, right? „Will I walk again? Can I start therapy after that?" he asked, forcing himself out of his dream world and opening up for the pain again. „We can get you started on therapy after that surgery, yes." one of the leading doctors explained and suddenly, they stopped doing things on his knee. „Okay, you're done. We'll put a cast on your leg and bring you to a room. You'll have to stay here for one or two days, though. And even longer for therapy." „I'll do it. I'll do it no matter what." Felix immediately claimed, getting wheeled back to his room. Arriving there, he was alone with Lina. Usually it was Jisung distracting him from the pain, or at least trying. He could whine and cry in front of Peter, both of them didn't mind. Not Jisung and not Felix, who tried to be more tough in front of his girlfriend. His girlfriend. He loved her more than anything, but he knew she was pitying him too much. He always wanted her to prove he wasn't as fragile as she thought when in fact, he was. He really was fragile, always hurting himself while just doing normal things like writing or eating. Even while sleeping he subliminally got hurt. „It's unusual that Jisung isn't here right now.. Can I text him?" Felix asked and started searching for his phone. He was happy when he found it.

Peter Jisung

10:01 am
Hi, do you have time for me?

10:02 am
Yup, sure. What's upppp?

10:02 am
I had surgery again and the
Anesthesia didn't work.

10:03 am
So you felt everything?
That sounds horrible!
Do you want me to come over?
I don't live that far away!

10:04 am
Don't hurry, Lina's with me.
She has to leave soon though.
It would be nice if you come, thanks.

10:05 am
I'll be there in about twenty minutes.
Hang in there, and,
you're welcome.