New Beginnings (Sequel to: It's Complicated)

Chapter 11: Missing You

Justin's POV

I blew up Shawna's phone. It went to voicemail over and over again. It ached. Being so far away from her. She feels so helpless right now and I can't be there for her.

"Hi you've reached Shawna," her voice mail said. "Justin stop," she giggled. "Sorry I can't get to the phone, please leave a message." It ended with giggles.

"Hey baby, I know you're at the garden tonight. And I know this is like the 12th time I've called. I just miss you. A lot. And it hurts. Like physically, emotionally, and mentally hurts," I almost started to cry. "Just call me when you get the chance, I love you."

I hung up and buried my face in pillows. I fell asleep before hearing from Shawna. I woke up at 6:00 am to Carter crying and I gave him a bottle. I didn't go back to sleep. I checked my phone and I got nothing from Shawna.

I decided to call Scooter.

"Hello?" Scooter answered.

"Hey, how's Shawna?" I asked her.

"She's catching up on some sleep, she's been having a tough time lately. I think the fact that she has no way of helping is killing her."

"Well just have her call me, please. I just need to hear her voice."

"Yeah, I'll make sure she calls you. She got in from the show last night and didn't even change before falling asleep. Rachel made sure she was in comfy clothes though."

"Aw," I frowned. "Scooter can I come visit her? She needs me right now."

"Yeah, we should surprise her."

"Okay," I got excited. "I'm sure I can fly out there and be there tonight."

"Okay, her show starts at 7:30, which is 4:30 your time. So make sure you're here by at least 10:30 or 11:00. And have Jennifer watch the kids."

"Okay, thanks so much Scooter. I'll let you know when I land in New York."

"Sounds good, see you tonight."

I hung up and packed a bag for myself. I called the airport and made sure my plane was ready. I packed some bags for the kids and then took them to Jennifer's.

I was so excited to see Shawna. I got to the airport and was rushed through the crowd. On the plane I couldn't sit still and the flight felt like forever.

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I pulled up into the parking lot of the arena and got into the back entrance. I had a huge bouquet of flowers for Shawna in my hand.

"She's going to be done soon," Scooter smiled.

I got excited. It's only been two weeks but she needed me and I really missed her. I watched as she moved her body and interacted with the crowd. She made people so happy and I could tell that was her happy face. I watched as Derek and her danced side by side and I couldn't help but feel jealous.

She finished her show and stepped offstage with Derek. She was laughing with him and I saw as her gaze fell from his eyes to the roses in my hand to me. Her eyes widened and her smile was huge. She ran and jumped into my arms.

I held her for awhile and whispered in her ear, "I love you baby. I missed you so much."

"Justin it's only been two weeks," she smiled and kissed me. "When the world tour kicks off its going to be difficult."

"I know baby, but I just had to see you," I kissed her.

"I missed you too," she smiled.

We held hands and went back to the bus. I talked with her about a lot of things and it felt amazing.