Some people spend their whole lives looking for something that's right in front of them. Really makes you wonder what you could be missing.
These hot days are becoming unbearable. I sit half naked in my room with the AC blowing thinking about all the things I could be doing. I sweat and listen to Summertime Clothes and scold myself for not doing anything else. What else could I be doing?
The song "Love is Worth Suffering For" sounds exactly how I imagine it feels to wake up with someone you know. Moving sleepily under the covers because it's a chilly morning, having the sunlight just seeping into the room through the closed blinds. The smell of morning air and the slight hum of the fan. The way it felt to wake up while at the beach. Peaceful and exciting. I can't wait to be able to do that everyday. "Well, I have waited in vain
For you to return and bless my bed
And I watched the sun crawl up
And shoot down with a hole through his head
But I followed it surely
'Cause he moves so painfully slow
Saying love is worth suffering for
Live without it and you'll know
You'll surely know"
You say you worry that you're not as nice to me as you should be, which by the way, is ridiculous. And completely far from the truth. I think your kindness to me surpassed just telling me I'm pretty and smart. I appreciate your words so much but I think you just do more now. You wrote me a letter on my birthday. You write to me in your wattpads. You make me playlists. We can readily talk forever. And no amount of nice words could compare to the fact that you carry my letter around with you. You can compliment me forever, but your love for me shines in other places. If anything I should be nicer to you.
I need to learn to drive. It's scary, but so is being in the same place forever.
Short one for today sorry about that
