From Grief We grew (Only On Wattpad)

Chapter 15 Teagan

   "Zayden! Zayden wake up."

   "Zayden please don't leave me!"

   "Zayden!"

   I cry bitterly as I keep screaming for him to wake up.

   "Teagan!"

   "Teagan!"

   I open my eyes as reality slaps me in the face. Zayden is gone. I find myself crying again in Lucah's arms as he rocks me slowly and pats my back.

   "It's okay. It's just a dream." Only it's not.

   I cry even more bitterly as my heart yearns for him. It's been a year and yet I'm not over his death.

   "I'm here. Shhhh it's okay. I got you." The sound of his heartbeat starts to calm me down. Once again I feel that familiar feeling of security. I pull away and he leans forward to wipe my tears. My breath hitches as I realize how close his face is to mine. Both of us are on the bean bag. My legs are tangled with his. He doesn't move back. Neither do I even though my heart screams pull away! I look at his lips and back at his eyes. I feel myself getting mesmerized by those plumpy pink lips and sapphire blue eyes. He starts leaning forward and my whole body just remains frozen. He closes the space between us and places his lips on mine. I feel myself melting in the kiss. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him. His lips are so soft on mine that it's almost ecstatic, making me forget my pain. But then all at once it comes back to me like a brick.

Pain.
Zayden.
I can't be happy.
Stop.
Panic.
Panic.
Pain.

   I pull away and stand up. He stands up and tries coming close to me but I move away.

   "Teagan..."

   "I gotta go," I say and turn around.

   "No, please. Teagan I'm sorry if I did anything wrong. Teagan, please! Wait!"

   I just quickly walk up to the door without waiting for him but then I stop by the staircase feeling bad for walking away. I turn around and look at him.

   "It's okay. I'm sorry."

   I run away and get into my car. I see him standing by the door frame as he watches me drive away.

   When I get home, I storm into my room without saying a word. I sit on my bed and start punching the pillow. "Idiot!" I mutter. "Stupid idiot!" I feel my thoughts racing and the guilt inside of me starts eating me up. "Ahhhhh why did you leave me?!!"

   "I'm sorry for today!"

   "I'm sorry," I whisper as tears roll down my cheeks. I pull my knees to my chest and wrap my arms around it.

   "T," my dad knocks on the door. He opens it and comes inside. "My gosh pudding what happened?"

   "I cheated on Zayden, Dad!" I cry and fall into his arms.

   "What do you mean honey?"

   "I kissed Lucah."

   "Who's Lucah?"

   My eyes widen but I let out another sob.

   "Elvis dad. Elvis is Lucah and I kissed him."

   "That's good honey-"

   "No," I sob. "I can't kiss him, dad. I love Zayden. I can't let anyone else in. I can't be happy when he is gone."

   He pulls away and lifts my chin.