From Grief We grew (Only On Wattpad)

Chapter 33 Teagan

I hear a cough. It almost sounds forced. Then a couple more and he mutters, "Ah my head hurts." Shit. I've been too forced on Lassie that I forgot about him.
 
    I place Lassie on the floor and turn to look at Lucah. "Do you-" he cuts in, "Are you okay?"
 
   "What?"
 
   "You uhm I don't know. You seem sad."
 
   "Just had a rough day at college," I lie.
 
   He places his hand on mine. "Teagan I know art school can be tough and the teachers are a lil strict but you got this."
 
   I hum and rest my head on his shoulder. He slowly moves his hand behind me and drapes it around my shoulders. His touch is light at first with hesitation but then seeing me not react, he pulls me close. I watch as Lassie rolls on the floor with a toy.
 
   "When did you guys get Lassie?"
 
   "Mmm about a year ago I think." He chuckles making me frown and then says, "We are actually not allowed to have a dog."
 
   "Why? How did you manage to keep her then?"
 
   "Building rules but the owner was kind enough to make an exception," he replies.
 
   "Why is that?"
 
   "Mmm, Paul and I were in a pretty rough spot last year. Financially, mentally and I also physically. So Paul thought it would be nice to get emotional support. Paul managed to convince the owner and he agreed for us to have a small dog.  Paul didn't even wait! The very next day he brought her home. She's been such a bundle of joy ever since."
 
   I feel even more guilty for being angry awhile ago. Lucah needed Lassie more than I did. Because if Zay was alive and I got Lassie last year. She won't be an emotional supporter for neither because I would have had Zay-
 
   Suddenly just like that, a thought sinks into my head... I have Lucah now. Lucah is my emotional support. Just like Lassie, the dog that Zay picked is HIS support. Is this fate?
 
   "Teagan?"
 
   "Mm?"
 
   He lifts my chin making me look at him. "You went silent suddenly ... Are you okay?"
 
   I nod and smile. My eyes travel down to the scar on the left side of his chest. I cautiously move my hand and brush my fingers over it. "That's what I meant by physically..." I wait for him to continue but he doesn't. It must be a surgery... it has to be. I don't ask him though. I find myself leaning forward moving it. I place my lips on the scar and kiss it just above his heart.
 
   "Teagan..." he hisses. I look up at him. "Y-your touch. It's- don't –" he closes his eyes as he holds my hand trying to stop me. Does he feel it too? The butterflies? I move my other hand and trail it down his chest. "Teagan..." he warns.
 
   "It's not fair," he mutters.
 
   "Mmm?"
 
   "You doing all that. I'm not able to do anything."
 
   My brain couldn't process what he said. It's probably because of the sound of my heart that was pounding in my ears or maybe Lucah's heart as I had my face pressed to his chest. "Mmm?" I hummed still dumbfounded.
 
   He groans, "Teagan I really f*cking like you and not being able to kiss you is killing me."
 
  "Then kiss me," I whisper as I straighten my posture and look at him. I place my hand on his chest where my face was. He hesitates, "but I have a cold..."
 
   "I don't care."
 
   He leans forward and presses his lips on mine. His arms securely wrap around my waist pulling me close to his chest.
 
Zayden.
No.
Zayden!
No!
Shut up.
This is fate.
I deserve to be happy.
 
   Eventually, the panic subsides as Lucah's hand moves under my top and rubs my waist. My chest is pressed onto his that I don't even know whose heart is beating faster. Both our hearts pound against each other begging for each other. I give in and pull away. I start removing my blouse.
 
   "Teagan." Lucah holds my hand. "I don't want-"
 
   I don't let him finish. "Neither do I. I just want to feel your presence. I think I pushed you away long enough," I whisper towards the end. Lucah blushes and nods. I get on his lap and go back to kissing him again. His hands continue caressing my skin; my arms; my waist; my neck; Setting every place he touches on fire.
 
   I don't pull away even though I get breathless. I let him do it. I nuzzle into his neck not daring to look at him. A childish grin plastered on my face. Lucah holds me in his arms. His hands have stopped roaming my skin but I still feel like I'm melting into him. I hear his famous huff-like chuckle which makes my heart skip a beat. "I can't believe this is happening."
 
   I smile. "Mmm Me too."
 
   We stay like that cuddling on the couch for I don't know how long until Lucah's phone rings. I get up and he goes to attend the call. I gather all my things and wait for him to get back.
 
  "It's getting late. I should go."
 
  "But I was going to order dinner for us."
 
   "I have homework. Maybe another time?" I ask. He pouts so I suggest, "If you are okay tomorrow, We can go get lunch after school." The pout vanishes almost immediately and he nods smiling.
 
   "Bye Lucah." I turn on my heel and take a few steps out of the door but then I stop. I turn back and find him looking at me. I run back to him and peck his cheeks. Without saying another word, I swiftly walk away. Gosh, why I can't stop smiling...
 
   When I get home, I get a text from Hayden. Call me when you are free. So I call him. "Hey. You reached home?"
 
   "Yeah, I did. I was at Lucah's." The feeling of his lips still lingers on mine and I blush.
 
   "Oooooh okay."
 
   "I'll get to that but first tell me. Is everything alright?" I ask in concern.
 
   "Yes. Yes. I just wanted to tell you that we unknowingly completed task/destination 9."
 
  I frown. "What do you mean?"
 
   "So I was going through the map when I realized the 9th spot looked familiar. I went through the envelope and Zayden said he booked me a spot. To go meet Jason."
 
   "Jason?"
 
   "Yes, Jason! Jason Kent. Owner of the Shadow night restaurant the one I sang at yesterday."
 
   "Oh my-"
 
   "Yeah! Turns out Zay arranged things with him. He was supposed to give him my guitar and I was supposed to play that night. But-" he doesn't finish.
 
   "Is that the reason why he gave you a chance?"
 
   "Yeah. I went and met him. He said it was partly the reason. But when he heard Bea and I perform, he wanted to give us a shot. And the job was because of our own talents."
 
   "Yeah! Y'all are awesome."  
 
   "Yeah. Guess that leaves us to the final destination..." he trails off.
 
   I'm in a good mood. The last thing I want to do is get sad again thinking about Zay not being there. So I quickly change the topic and start telling him about Lassie.
 
   "Damn T. I don't know about you but I think this is the universe's way of telling you that he is the one."
 
   I do too. I think to myself and grin.