From Grief We grew (Only On Wattpad)

Chapter 25 Teagan

"Teagan?"

   I open my eyes to find Zayden lying beside me. He smiles and I smile in return. Suddenly, he frowns and then I see sorrow on his face.

   "Zay, what's wrong?"

   I notice blood on his pillow. I gasp and sit up.

   "What is this? Zay, what's wrong?" I touch the blood and cringe.

   "Why didn't you tell me you love me?"

  I start crying. "I was scared. I'm sorry. I love you, Zay. I wish I knew back then."

   "Now it's too late." He starts fading away.

   "Nooooo!" I sit up and look around.

   My heart races as sweat dribbles from my head. Just a dream. I sigh and hold my head. I feel it pounding and I groan in pain. Someone knocks on my door and my dad walks in with a glass of water. He gives me a pill and I look at him in confusion.

   "Take this. It will help the hangover."

   I almost forgot!

   I take the pill as I try to remember what happened. I remember going out with Hayden, then seeing a boy bleed, then I went to the graveyard. I remember going to a bar with Lucah but I don't remember what we spoke... Then I remember it! The kiss. I curse under my breath and go into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and take a big amount of chocolate shampoo in my hand. I rub and rub it on my head in hopes I'll smell like him. I get outside and pick up out Zayden's clothes to wear. I look at myself in the mirror and grab a strand on my hair. I frown and tie it into a ponytail.

   I walk out of class and see Hayden. I quickly look away and start walking. I hear him call me. I pick up my pace and disappear into the crowd. I go into the parking lot and look for my car. I find Lucah standing by it. Shit. I casually walk up to him.

   "Nice T-shirt," he says.

   "Thanks."

   "Are you feeling okay?"

   "Yes," I reply.

   "Uhm, about last night-"

   "Did I tell you anything?"

   "Don't you remember what happened?"

   "No," I lie.

   "Oh," I see hurt in his eyes.

   "What did I tell you?"

   "Well, I couldn't understand most of it but you did say that someone your loved one died and it's like living in hell without them." My body tenses hearing him.

   I close my eyes and bit my lips.

   "Teagan?"

   "I gotta go. I'm not feeling well. "

   "Do you -" I close the door and start the car.

   Without looking back, I drive away. My heartaches in guilt but there is no way I'm having a conversation about Zayden now. I drive to the salon and walk inside.

   "I want to colour my hair ice blonde."

   After the stylist is done, I look in the mirror and smile. I feel more like him with his hair. I thank her and walk out after paying her. I go home and dump my portfolio on the bed. I grab one of my snapbacks and wear it. I go into the garage and take the skateboard Zayden made me. I get on it and start skating down the road.