I went to my Dr. Williamson office and sat on the couch
"It's been a while, how have you been?" Dr. Williamson asked
"A lot, a lot has happened." I replied
"Where do you want to start?" She asked
"The beginning" I said
I explained the beginning of the story like leaving the twins and going to the ball. I was able to build up the courage to say what happened to me. It involves me dry heaving and full of tears.
"And now it feel weird when Stefan tries to kiss me and I know it's not his fault it's just automatically it goes back to that moment" I said
"It is not your fault. You recently went through a traumatic event" she said
She explained to me how the trauma affected my love life and how I need to learn and start slowly with Stefan. I also should mentally get over this before doing anything sexual with Stefan so I'm not uncomfortable. We would start slow, small things then start to do bigger things. I also explained how I didn't mean to kill the guy. He started to get up and I didn't realize before it was too late and I hit his stomach instead of his shoulder.
"Thank you dr. Williamson" I said
"You're welcome, remember small steps." She replied
"Ok" I said
I drove home and on the way picked up some food.
"How was therapy?" Stefan asked
"Fine, I just have to take it slow. She said before we do anything sexual, I need to be ready and mentally over it and okay about it and not freak out" I said
"We'll take it slow, i'll be there to help you, only if you want" He said
"Of course I want you with me, it's just hard" I replied
"I understand, take your time" He said
"Thanks" I replied
The rest of the day Stefan gave me space, not wanting to impose or overstep. He didn't try kissing me which I was not used to it but I know he was giving me space.
Stefan and I kept arguing about who gets the master bedroom because I told him I am fine in the guest room but he said he's fine in the guest bedroom as well. In the end I was in the master bedroom.
I woke up in the middle of the night, I checked on the twins and they were still asleep. I go see Stefan and he wasn't in the bedroom. I go downstairs to see him in the family room on the couch with a bottle of scotch
"Stefan, why are you up?" I asked
"I'm sorry" he said
"Stefan, what happened?" I asked
"It's all my fault" he said
"What's your fault?" I asked
"I should have just gone to the bathroom with you, I could have stopped this" He said
"Stefan it is not your fault, don't ever think it is" I replied
"I should have gone with you" he said
"We can't go back in the past, we only can go forward" I said hugging him. I know he needed a hug and I pushed aside my feelings and problem.
"I'm so sorry" He said hugging me back, putting his head on my shoulder which made me stiffen but I remember this is Stefan, the love of my life. He is my husband and I know he wouldn't hurt me.
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My New Future
RomanceBook 3 of the My new life series. Anastasia rose, formerly known as Alexis whitmore has a decision she must make, which can affect her future. Not only is she running from her brothers but the decision she makes can affect everything she has lived...
