The Thin Line Between Love and Hate

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"Should I pick the one with the christmas tree or the one with the snowman?" Soojin asked, showing both cards to Shuhua who looked intensely at it as she tried to think hard about which one to pick. 

The days were going by fast and with exams over, thankfully all of them had passed with flying colors so  they were able to relax and have time to plan for christmas time and buying cards to give to their families; The Seo family collected those holiday cards religiously and Shuhua thought it was adorable, Soojin even promised to show the collection to her one day and claimed some cards are so old they lost their original color; The Yeh didn't had those types of traditions, ever since they came to South Korea her mother stopped buying cards as her father spend less and less time with them on holidays. 

"What about the one with the mountains?" The younger suggested, picking the third card on the shelf. "Not many people buy those" She added, wrapping her arm around the older's waist and bringing her closer as a couple of boys walk past them. "I think your dad will like this one, didn't you say he wanted to go mountain hiking one day?" 

"You're right" Soojin picked the card and then looked at the one with a christmas tree "Mom will like this one tho… Are you going to buy one for your parents?" She asked the younger.

"Just to my mom-" Shuhua's arm moved from Soojin's waist to her shoulders. "You know, Winter is her favorite season" She said smiling as she picked a blue card with several snowflakes of different shapes on it. "She said it's because it's the season I was born in,”Soojin smiled at that. “You know, we only saw snow for the first time when we came to Korea”

“Really?”

Shuhua nodded and smiled. “Yeah, it was in middle school. After class when we were coming back home Yuqi and I stopped to watch the first snow and-”

“You had to see the absolute wonder in her eyes seeing it” Yuqi said, approaching the two of them with Soyeon at her side; Both pairs had come to buy holiday cards together but eventually split up because Shuhua didn’t want to be near any lovey dovey couples. “Her eyes were shining like stars and all that” The chinese added with a smile as she gesticulated in front of her own eyes and Soojin laughed as Shuhua rolled her eyes. 

"You two saw the first snow together," Soyeon started. "That means you'll stay together forever" Soojin and Soyeon both tried to contain their smiles as the younger duo stared at each other with what they know was fake disgust. 

"No way-"

"I had enough of her"

They both said at the same time, making the older pair laugh at their reaction, Soyeon kissed Yuqi's cheek between giggles and Soojin looked up to Shuhua, who looked back at her, and then looked away embarrassed for considering doing the same to the younger.

After a few days of thinking Soojin had decided to confess her feelings for Shuhua, but not right now as they're all so focused on the holidays and spending time with their families and relaxing from the break they had of school, and the play that they would have to worry about on the next month; The older had been planning how to confess her feelings to the taiwanesse for a while now, should she prepare something to say beforehand? Should she be spontaneous? A lot of questions were going on in her head, there was also the fact that she would have to make sure the younger knew that she had no expectations to have her feelings to be returned as she was more than aware that Shuhua was in love with someone else; Soojin was ready to be rejected but at least she wouldn't let this feeling suffocated any longer.