FRAT LINE|Year 2&3-KNJ✔️

+18+

+My Oasis (feat. Burna Boy)-Sam Smith+

+MALIA+

Am I in love?

I know what love is. I would like to think that I know what love feels like. But this feels so... different. It feels warmer. The feeling in my chest, the fluttering in my stomach. How do I effectively describe the things that I feel? How do I properly tell this man that he brings me so much joy?

"... and I think that Bonsai trees are cool. Like I know they're hard to grow because of all the maintenance but they're cool. Like, look."

He points one out as we walk through the exhibit. He squeezes my hand as we walk to the glass enclosure.

"The way they grow is so different."

I look at him as he marvels at it. His eyes are filled with wonder and his lips are slightly parted. There's a shine in his big brown eyes that makes me so happy to see. And when he turns to look at me, my heart swells.

"Are you listening to me?" He asks as his eyes search mine. His voice is soft, still maintaining its depth.

"I am. Bonsai trees are hard to grow but you think they're cool anyway. You wanted to grow yours over the summer but didn't have the time because of work and boxing. You think that it should be given undivided attention as if it were your child."

I relay the gist of what he told me and he gives me a small smile.

"You seemed distracted." He says as he grabs my hands. He holds them in his and rubs over my knuckles with his thumbs.

Everything in the indoor garden's building is quiet. With the exception of quiet conversations and the humming of the vents, the atmosphere of the place is very serene.

"I was... but I was still listening."

Namjoon lifts my hand, putting our fingertips together as he looks at them.

"What were you thinking about?"

"You.. us." I look at our fingers as they intertwine. The corners of my mouth tug into a smile at the sight.

"What about us?" He asks, almost sounding cautious. I look up at him and his face is in a neutral expression.

"Nothing bad.."

"Then tell me."

He intertwines our other hand and steps closer. He looks down at me and I can't help but smile at him. My heart skips in my chest as his dragon eyes are on me. So fierce yet so gentle.

The memory of him shielding them from the sun as he asked me out plays in my head. Focusing on just his gaze; had I payed enough to him and not the situation, had I been observant enough... I'd have noticed that though he was outwardly confident, his eyes screamed hesitance.

He was unsure of himself before our small interaction was even over. Through his eyes, he was already regretting his actions.

Had I payed enough attention instead of being so nervous around him, I'd have noticed that the way he looks at me now, he looked at me before but to a lesser degree.

"... I love you."

A hesitant admittance. But I mean it.

He looks at me and tilts his head subtly. We've established that we love each other already. To his knowledge, that isn't something that I should have to question anymore. And it isn't.

"I know I've said it before. I mean it every time. But this one... feels different." I try to explain. "I feel it in my chest, in my head. It feels..."

"Deeper." He finishes and I nod.