FRAT LINE|Year 2&3-KNJ✔️

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The sounds of cameras clicking and music playing bounces off the walls of the room as Namjoon stands on the white backdrop. His focus is on the camera but his mind is clearly elsewhere.

He ended up spending the night at Malia's apartment the other because it rained for the entire rest of the night.

Why he didn't check the weather for that, he doesn't remember and neither do I. Most likely because he was too excited about what he'd done for her. Too excited about what he wanted to show her. He ended up not showing her anything at all.

He hadn't planned on showing her the tattoos either. But she insisted so he couldn't tell her 'no'. He told me was itching like crazy and if he hadn't gotten the A&D, he'd have scratched it. That would've pissed him off because he doesn't want to ruin it.

It hurt like hell to sit through and he paid good money for the perfect and specific print that the got on his fingers.

I cringed the entire watching him get it. Mostly because I'd never get my fingers tattooed. It'd hurt like hell and I don't think I have a very high pain tolerance.

But for the most part, I was cringing because it felt heart wrenching to watch Namjoon stare at his fingers as he was being tattooed. The look on his face when he finally got to see the finished product was bittersweet.

It's so obvious that Namjoon's in love with Malia. Like in love with her. Such an accidental soul tie that culminated one of the purest things I've gotten to witness with my own two eyes.

They're two imperfect people with their own healing processes that need to happen. The fallout was bound to happen since the situation with Raeya is something that he needs to heal from.

I think that he's tried to bury it without ever acknowledging it and that's not okay. He's never healed if he's never acknowledged and to be honest, I'd prefer this be brought to light now while it's early in their relationship than years down the line.

The impact that would have on Malia of not knowing for all that time would crush her. Because how could you so long without ever saying something? It'd be the time that would mess with her. So much time and he still didn't tell her. She'd doubt how much that he trusted her.

If anymore time has gone by, I don't put it past Malia to mindfuck herself into thinking that Namjoon was living with Raeya through her. That's what she thinks now. She told Janae and I.

Malia thinks that Namjoon used her, whether it be unintentional or not, to fill the void that Raeya left. To live out the relationship or dream life that he wanted with Raeya.

She's under the impression that he doesn't really love her. But rather loves the facade that he's placed himself in with her.

She think that he's paralleled her to Raeya so much that he's just loving that vile ass woman through her somehow.

And while men will do fucked up shit like that, I don't think that's the case here. In fact, I'm 99.99 percent sure that it's not. .1 I'm leaving completely to chance because although I know I'm not wrong, you never really know, you know?

But I know that's not the case with Namjoon. He genuinely, truly does love Malia. But she can't see that right now. She doesn't want to because of what she thinks. In her mind, she's fully convinced herself that Namjoon doesn't love her. He loves the image of her that he's created in his own head. He loves the parts of her that equate to the the parts in Raeya.

To be blunt, the logical side of me is completely aware that that's bullshit. The only thing that Malia and that lady have in common is dance. That's it. And barely that.