FRAT LINE|Year 2&3-KNJ✔️

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Today is a mess. Absolutely exhausting. People kept staring at me like I have three heads and I don't like that. They didn't stop until I stared back. I did it all day. The hell were they looking at? I don't know but it's rude.

They act like they've never seen a pretty person before. And I know that's not true because they know the entire dance team. Malia, included. But I managed to get through the day without getting upset, just annoyed.

Xavier was no help this morning. Something is bothering him and it's bothering me that I don't know what it is. He wouldn't tell me but he was crying. He can't lie and say that he wasn't because his cheeks were puffy and his eyes were red rimmed.

It kind of hurts that he didn't want to tell me. I thought we were at a point where we could tell each other everything. I tell him everything. Maybe he just doesn't feel the same?

Or maybe it was a guy thing that he needed to talk to Namjoon for? Something that he felt like he couldn't tell me. Was it something embarrassing?

I really don't think that he'd ever cheat on me. I know that every woman probably feels like this but I'm confident that he wouldn't. You could put him with the woman he thinks is the finest bitch in the world and he still wouldn't cheat. Because it'd be me.

But him going to Namjoon makes me wonder if the issue is something similar that he and Malia went through. He could need advice from someone whose gone through it or experienced it. However, I can think of nothing so it can't be that.

"He hasn't talked to you at all about it?" Malia asks as she showers.

"No. It's making me kinda mad." I cross my arms as I sit against the toilet seat.

I came back to Malia and my suite with her. We're in it together but I've been with Xavier at the frat house since classes started so she's been by herself. Well, probably not entirely. Namjoon is across the hall so I know his big head ass been over here.

"And you don't know what it could be at all?"

"No. Lia, do you think he's cheating on me?"

She snickers and starts giggling. "Girl, what?"

She peeks her head out of the shower curtain to see if im joking. My blank expression lets her know that I am not.

"No, Janae. That man is not cheating on you. I very highly doubt that. Have you seen the way that man looks at you? He loves you to death. I can't even... picture him doing that. It doesn't make sense in my head."

"Do you think I did something then?"

Malia turns the water off and grabs her towel. She wraps it around her body as she steps out of the shower.

"Why would you think that? You said that you guys have been fine, great even." She opens the door to the bathroom and we walk into her bedroom.

I sit on her bed and sigh. "I don't know, Lia. He hasn't been saying anything. It's just been 'I'll talk to you about it later'. But even before he said that, he's been off for days. He brushes me every time I bring it up. So I don't want to keep doing it and then he gets irritated with me and doesn't want to talk or be around me at all."

Malia dries off as she thinks. I can see the look on her face and know that shes trying to find good words to say.

"I don't think that it's anything that you did or.. even that he did. This is Xavier we're talking about. He helps everyone else solve their problems and rarely ever talks about his own. I have never heard that man talk about a single personal problem unless it was a learning that he could use to help someone else."