The boy who's dream came blue

Saving mason 😰

Lynds pov
As soon as I got in my room I click on masons contact and within seconds he answered he is tucked up on his bed visibly holding the pillow I had used hey baby as you can see I'm all safe i say good oh God I miss you so much already Baby I want you back in my arms mason says aww baby I want to be in your arms aswell not sure how I'll be able to sleep knowing I won't be waking up to you or waking you up I wish it was morning already I respond . Baby are you okay nothings bothering you is it as you've not been yourself all evening.i ask him I'm ok babe he says okay baby if you say your fine then I'll take your word for it but if anything is bothering you I hope you know you can tell me anything big or small yeah I love you with all I have mase you are always going to be my greatest choice in boyfriend and in life . I tell him I then hear my mother telling me it's bed Time I swear i could see the tension build within mason but I had to believe him and that he says he was ok good night baby sleep well and I'll see you in the morning gorgeous. Good night baby girl I can't wait for morning desperately craving a certain someone's hugs your pillow isn't as good as you sleep tight babe only 6 hours and then you best prepare yourself for the biggest hug of your life you make mornings worthwhile I love you so much and more too .and then we hang up and i settle down to sleep and dream of my life with mason as it's the only thing I have to look forward to being his wife one day is what keeps me going and is getting me over what happened I hoped he knew how much it means to me I'd tell him all day everyday if needed as long as he knew that's all that matters to me and he's all that matters to me

Masons pov
My room feels so empty and i keep wanting to hear Lynds's voice chatting with mum or one of my siblings I miss her something stupid and all I can do to offer myself some sort of comfort is hug her pillow and breath in her scent and then my phone is lighting up with an incoming FaceTime call from lynds without even thinking i accept the call and her perfect self appears on my screen hey baby as you can see I'm all safe despite the words leaving her mouth it still didn't relax me enough and i could feel the vice like band make its way into my chest again i hoped it would Stay intact for as long as possible but I managed to respond with I'm ok babe good oh god I miss you so much already baby I want you back in my arms and lynds replies with aww baby I want to be in your arms aswell not sure how I'll be able to sleep knowing I won't be waking up to you or waking you up I wish it was morning already and she says Baby are you okay nothings bothering you is it as you've not been yourself all evening.shit I think to myself I can't let her know I'm terrified that something else is going to happen to her and it will be another thing I won't be able to protect her from and another thing that would be my fault and all too soon her mother yells up at her it's time for her to get to bed she says I'm ok babe i quickly reply okay baby if you say your fine then I'll take your word for it but if anything is bothering you I hope you know you can tell me anything big or small yeah I love you with all I have mase you are always going to be my greatest choice in boyfriend and in life so good night baby sleep well and I'll see you in the morning gorgeous.before I leave I tell her Good night baby girl I can't wait for morning desperately craving a certain someone's hugs your pillow isn't as good as you sleep tight babe only 6 hours and then you best prepare yourself for the biggest hug of your life you make mornings worthwhile I love you so much and more too before she hangs up and the second the screen goes that's when the band around my chest snaps and I loose control over my breathing and my body doesn't feel like my own i clutch Lynds's pillow and shake and let my tears fall i thought I was muffling my sobs but the next thing I know mum and Ryan are at my door
Aw love what's wrong talk to me sweetheart and she sits beside me and I just shake and pull Lynds's pillow tighter Aww love tell me you and lynds are still together she says cautiously and ryan comes over and stops in front of me bro it's me Ryan I need you to slow your breathing down for me yeah in and out just copy what i do yeah and listen to my voice ok slow that breathing for me bud and tell me what you can feel around you nice and slowly umm my clothes,my bedding, you holding my leg, good now tell me what you can hear.Errm cars going past ,birds, and Nikki and Lottie chatting fabulous well done buddy keep focusing on slowing that breathing and getting it nice and steady and focus on my voice yeah your doing fabulously and now what can you smell umm mums perfume,the sauce from teatime, and er my chocolate drink well done buddy that was amazing you did fantastically well bro I'm proud of you are you feeling better now and I nod in reply. I told you last time If you needed anything to come and get me you absolute spanner.and then he pulls me in to a hug and ruffles my hair and leaves my room but mum stays sat beside me right sweetheart your not leaving this room until you tell me how long you've been experiencing panic attacks to that extent for hmm.that's my only one and don't worry me and lynds are absolutely fine .Well I'm glad you and lynds are fine but don't bullshit me as Ryan said he helped you last time So come on darling tell me the truth I want to help If I can and I certainly won't judge you angel .i sigh it was my second one I had one this morning before school In the shower. Mum just gives me a soft smile and A gentle hug aww sweetheart well done for being incredibly brave for telling me I'm so proud of you love .What's going on with you to get you like this sweetie it's not healthy lynds would be devastated if she knew you were going through this. Well mum lynds is sort of the cause what if I can't protect her like I promised I would what would happen if she's attacked again will it get worse each time it was my fault mum I let her get hurt I've got the girl who means more to me than air it's self and I don't know what else I can do to make sure she's safe and my breathing increases again. Easy sweetheart it's okay and mason none of this is your fault at all so don't worry okay and mum rubs my arm love I really think you should try and find a way to tell her that your going through this she'll understand. Yes mum I'll tell her. Good boy right would you like some water and some biscuits since you didn't eat much of your tea. Yes please thanks mum she placed a kiss on my forehead and said I love you sweetheart I'll just go and get those biscuits and that water and left my room.