Heart in Seoul - Jenlisa G!P

35. One step at a Time

LALISA MANOBAN

"Jennie I-I" I took another deep breath and turned on my seat with one leg crossed to look at her. I hold her other hand too like they are giving me strength to talk. "I like you Jennie" I said in a fast pace and looked at her. She had her mouth slightly open and eyes wide. I feel a lot lighter now that I have said that and I feel more comfortable to say the rest.

"I guess I have always been attracted to you. Even before the airport incident, but you know I thought it was just a celebrity crush so I never took it seriously. But after that, we kept on meeting each other. You were everywhere I went and I just couldn't stop myself from being pulled toward you. I don't know the particular moment where I fell for you. Maybe it's the first time we met at the airport when I bumped into you, you made a permanent home in my mind after that day, I was always thinking about you. Maybe it was the second time we met, you looked so gorgeous even after the long flight, It was like seeing an angel, I was so lost appreciating your beauty that I lost myself and stuttered like an idiot in the restaurant. I still feel that way around you, being lost, but I guess I'm better at hiding it."

I was looking at her the whole time while telling her everything. She seemed a little calm now. Her expressions were slowly going back to normal and I could see a hint of smile tugging on her lips.

"At the fair, I wish I could go back in time and live that day all over again, That day I had a little discovery about my feeling for you. But I just ignored it because I don't want us to ruin our friendship. I mean I know I'm taking a risk right now too, but I can't loose you Jennie. Please even if you don't feel the same. Let's just stay as friends." I felt her squeeze my hand a little and saw a smile on her face. I knew at that moment that we will be fine even if we are not together together, we will still be friends.

"I just can't keep all these emotions inside. That's why I decided to tell you everything. So yeah at the fair I knew about my feelings but everything was confirmed when we met again in Jeju. At Udo Island, I was so happy that you were there. I had the best days of my life on the trip because you were there. We connected more on that trip and I got this feeling of protectiveness over you during those days. Jennie you took such a huge place in my heart and mind in such a short period of time. I-I'm overwhelmed with all these unknown emotions. I have never felt this way for anyone."

Jennie had a single tear rolling down from her eye. I lifted my hand still holding hers and brushed it off with my thumb.

"I want to be the reason for your smile, I want to make you the happiest person in the whole world, I want to give you everything you want, I want to be there with you every time you need a shoulder to lean on, I just want to be with you Jennie. To take care of you, to lo-" I took a deep breath and looked intensely in her eyes "to love you Jennie. I know we should go slow but" I had tears in my eyes too now "but Jennie I Love you. I love you so much that it hurt when you ignored me today."

She hold my hand tightly and wiped a tear that rolled down my face. I had my eyes squeezed shut as I took deep breaths. "Lisa I.." She started.

"Wait... Let me finish" I opened my eyes to look at her crying "Jennie I will understand if you don't love me back. I don't expect you to even like me, I am not special in any way and you deserve so much more than me. Just don't let this come in between our friendship. I, Jennie I don't know what I will do if you..." I didn't get to complete my sentence because in just a moment Jennie leaned in and kissed me, on the lips.

It felt softer than when she had kissed me on the cheek in Jeju. I felt like she is communicating with me through the kiss. Telling me that I don't have to worry, that we will be fine. That she feels something for me too. I mean that's why you kiss someone right? Because you like them in some way. It was just simply our lips resting against each other just for a few seconds. But it all went in slow motion and it felt so much longer so much more than just a kiss.

We rested our foreheads together. "I like you too dummy" Jennie said and I felt a smile making its way on my face. She pulled back to look at me properly and said again.

"I like you Lisa. I like you so damn much." Jennie said with a bright smile and teary eyes. I don't know what to say anymore. I was so happy at that moment. I pulled her toward me and hugged her so tight. We stayed like that for a few moments.

"Miss Kim, would you like to go out on a date with me?" I whispered still hugging her, burying my face in between her neck and shoulder. I have never been so emotional ever.

"I'd love to Miss Manoban" Jennie said and I hugged her tighter if that was even possible. "Tell me this is not a dream."

"That should be my line." I said and looked up finally pulling away from Jennie but still holding one of her hand. I tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and cupped her face. "But I'm glad it's not. I don't know if I will have courage to say all that again."

"I'm glad too. I have never been in any kind of romantic relationship Lisa. But I want to do this with you." Jennie said and leaned on my palm.

"I want to do this too. I like you so much." I wanted to tell her that I love her, but I don't want to force her on loving me back. One step at a time.

She smiled at me and leaned in again, maybe to kiss me or hug me. But we were interrupted by her bodyguard.

"I'm sorry ma'am but we have a problem." He said in a hurry with worried expressions. Jennie was startled with the sudden interruption but still managed to get it together.

"What Happened?" She asked with a firm but calm voice one she uses during work. She talked like we didn't just kissed, cried, hugged, poured our hearts out.

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