Heart in Seoul - Jenlisa G!P

40. Kiss and Makeup

JENNIE KIM

Her body pressed against mine, both breathing heavily together. I could feel our shared breath, feel the thud of our combined heartbeat as we fumbled to find another better angle to kiss more deeply. Her lips were warm and soft. My lips parted slightly, allowing her tongue to slip inside.

She's kissing me. Once, twice, until I realize I'll never have enough. She's touching me everywhere, up my back and over my arms and suddenly she's kissing me harder, deeper, with a fervent urgent need I've never known before.

It became heated in an instant. I was expecting something like this to happen. Well can you blame me? I'm 24 and a virgin. As much as I like Lisa's personality and everything about her, The sexual tension between us and need for release is so much right now that I can't stop whatever is going on. I don't want to stop whatever is going on.

We made out for I don't know how long, but Lisa suddenly backed away from me in a hurry with worried expressions on her face. I was confused, what just happened? Did I do something wrong? Or is she not ready? I don't know why but I was a little hurt too.

I tried to reach her arm as she sat on the edge of the bed with her elbows rested on her thigh and head bowed down. Before I was even able to touch her she stood up still not facing me.

"I'm sorry" she said "I'm so so sorry Jen. But I have to go." she continued and started going towards the gate of the room. I was even more confused as she passed through the gate and was completely out of my sight.

I suddenly had the urge to go after her. I don't know if I should. Should I give her some space? But I was already making my way out of the room in a hurry and soon caught up to her on the main door while she was busy wearing her shoes. I was standing there watching her do her thing. Nothing came out of my mouth.

Finally she stood up and looked at me. We both stared at each other for a while. Me with wondering eye thinking about what happened. Her with worried and sad eyes. I want to know if something is bothering her but the look she is giving me is like asking me not to inquire.

"I think I should go now" she almost whispered, her voice broke a bit so she cleared her throat. "I'll see you later?" she asked.

"Yeah" I said and she nodded and turned around about to leave. "Lisa wait." I said in a hurry and took a step forward to close the distance between us. As soon as she turned to face me again I was in front of her. I moved my hand to hold hers. I didn't want to let go of her hand. I was holding it like my life depends on it.

I looked in her eyes to find anything that will assure me that we are okay. She may have seen the desperation on my face as her expressions softened. She let out a sigh and removed one of her hand from my hold. I was disappointed, but only for a second as her hand made its way to cup my face while her thumb lightly stroked my cheeks

"Are you okay?" I was the first one to break the silence. Her actions gave me strength to speak, I was afraid to say something wrong and push her away.

"Yeah. I'm fine. Its just." She stated but paused thinking again if she should tell me or not. I squeezed her hand and she looked down at our intertwined hands. A small smile made its way on my face as she squeezed back and took deep breath like taking strength from our touch.

"I- I something happened when I was little." She paused and looked up at me for a second. "I had a really bad experience in high school. I was kidnapped by my friends parents for money."

I was shocked with this new discovery. My hold on her hand tightened without me noticing and she smiled while looking at me which I know was forced.

"I was 15, sophomore year. He was the only one who knew about me. Everything there was at that time to know about me. And they took advantage of that." She continued and I was standing still. I didn't know what to do.

I put my finger on her lips to stop her from continuing, I was already on the brink of crying. "You don't have to talk about this Lis." I said with such a soft voice like I was taking to a kid.

I pulled her with me to the couch and got her some water. I sat beside her as I watched her drinking water.

I hold one of her hand again with both of mine. "He had an older sister who umm..." She paused like she is thinking of the right word. "She did some inappropriate things and it just came back a while ago when we were..."

"Oh my god Lis... I'm so sorry you had to experience something like that." I said and squeezed her hand. I don't know what else to do in a situation like this.

She looked at me and smiled a little. "You don't have to apologize. It's not your fault."

"But still it triggered because of what we were doing. I'm so sorry Lis." I repeated again.

This time she cupped my face with her free hand and turned to look straight at me. "It was nothing major, just- just an image of that night, nothing serious. I already recovered with some help and it doesn't bother me now."

"But you had a vision a while ago. Are you really fine Lisa?" I asked worried for her even more. If she had recovered why she had that image?

"I'm fine. You're umm.." she started but her cheeks turned pink all of a sudden. I'm confused and worried now.

"I'm what??" I asked. She took her hand from my cheek and hide her face in her hands.

"You're the first girl I have kissed after that incident." She said and scratched her nape. All of a sudden she is cute. I smiled a little "I guess that's why I had a vision because of the heated kiss." Now I'm also blushing, we were in a pretty heated make out session. "But I'm fine. I was just startled with the sudden image that's why I wanted to leave."

"Just share your problem with me next time instead of trying to leave." I said and hugged her. "Promise you will not hide anything from me."

"Okay I promise." She said and hugged me back. "I haven't told you some things but can we go like one step at a time? I don't want to scare you."

"You can't scare me away Lisa. I love you." I finally told her. I know she needed to hear those words and I know I do love her so why not tell her. She pulled back from the hug and looked at me shocked.

"Wh-what did you just say?" she stuttered. Cute... "Can you please say it again?"

"I Love you Lisa." I said as I hold her close to me. She hugged me back tightly and I heard her sobbing. I never took her as an emotional person. She came with a full package in my life and I will not say No to any part of her.

"I love you too Jennie... So much"