Sanegiyuu oneshots

Insecurities

*fluff
*Morden Au
*Idea given by Unknow_Ellie

Giyuu's pov:

I sighed, staring at myself in the mirror. My hair was wet and my neck was covered with.. marks. My face grew hotter as I gazed over the marks that littered my body, it was embarrassing yet hot at the same time when I see the possessiveness in nemi. I washed my face with the cool water, refreshing my thinking of this morning.

Was I really a slut?

I questioned myself.

I felt a pang in my heart when I remembered how nemi degraded me whilst we were having fun, sure I don't really mind it as much but I couldn't help but be a little bit insecure about it. I used to have an ex, and he wasn't the best guy out there - he was more toxic than hydrochloric acid, in fact, alkalines couldn't even neutralise him because the toxicity he held was outstanding. I flinched as I remembered the insults he slurred out on a daily basis, he neither respected me nor cared about my feelings ar all, he did what he liked and led me to a down spiral that turned my life upside down. I was lucky enough to meet nemi, whom had turned my life upright again, but I was still insecure about his love for me.

Am I really disgusting?

Does nemi even love me? Or was he using me for my body?

I don't know, I don't know anything at all.

Was our love fake?

If it was, was it because I was a slut?

Maybe.

I scoffed. I hated how sensitive I was but I couldn't help it - I was born sensitive to begin with. It was annoying but there was nothing I could do about it except suck it up and deal with it alone. I glanced at the marks that decorated my body once more and I felt disgusted recalling the memories of this morning. I cringed as I remembered my indecent cries that were full of lust.

It was repulsive.

I truly was a slut.

I shook my head, bitting my lip and cursing under my breath.

Why am I like this?

...

3rd person pov:

"Sup" a scarred male greeted when he saw the ravenette exiting the bathroom of their master bedroom.

"Hi.." the latter mumbled, staring at the ground to hide his watery eyes.

"You okay?" The male asked concerningly when he noticed the ravenette's strange behaviour.

"Yeah, I'm fine"

"You sure?"

"Yeah"

"Are you really okay, yuu?"

Giyuu bit his lip and remained silent, looking away to hide the tear that slipped down his cheek. His lover got out of the bed and walked over to the ravenette with light steps.