Lust for Love

Chapter 52

"Hah! Ha!" Where am I? Hmm? There's blood on my hands. Ah, this again! Who's blood is it this time?

A hand grabbed my cheeks roughly as it pulled up my face to watch a dizzy Tyler bleeding over the coffee table.

"Tyler?" It's his blood.

"No! Jacob, please! Please!" I screamed but he wouldn't listen instead he wrapped his arms around my waist so hard I could hardly breathe and when I looked down there was blood dripping down my thighs.

"No, no, no, no, please...." I begged as 2 sets of hands emerged out of the ground trying to grab my feet desperately as if they were being pulled back into the earth.

When I tried to reach out to them I was drowned in a bloody river cascading down Carmel's red hair and she smiled as she held Genny and Tyler held them both affectionately.

I tried to reach out to them but instead found myself feeding Tyler a dessert and he coughed up blood the very next moment.

Genny cried profusely, "DADA! DADA!" and Carmel tried to save him but his body lay cold on the ground. I couldn't comprehend what had just happened but something kept twisting tightly around my heart.

I saw two ghost of babies taking their first step as they held onto my arms for support on either side of me. Their skin was covered in dirt and soot and, tiny grassroots but they seemed healthy and chubby, as their squishy hands held onto me.

Did I feel a slight sense of relief?

No, adoration?

Am I happy?

I don't understand what this feeling is. It was only until they looked up with hollowed eyes crying bloody tears as they called out to me,

"MOMMY?"

* GASP *

I woke up again in a dark room and almost mistook myself to be still dreaming until I felt the blanket covering me.

I lay in bed covered in a cold sweat trying to relax my breathing although it still felt like a difficult task. The sensation of my blood still frozen in my veins lingered a little longer until it felt a little less suffocating.

My body intuitively walked toward the door as if it was programmed in every cell of my body to go see Angelica.

But as soon as I reached for the doorknob I suddenly remembered the two babies with hollow eyes as they called out to me, "MOMMY"

"HIC!" I ran into the bathroom and fell to my knees as I tried to puke but it was just psychological reflux from feeling extremely uncomfortable and anxious.

I can't.

I shouldn't.

I turned the shower on and sat under the cold water that gradually turned warm but the temperature didn't matter as my cheeks burned from my firm grip trying to muffle my cries so that I didn't wake up Tyler who was sleeping in the room next to mine.

*HIC HUK HIC*

No, I didn't forget you Laelynn, Lucius. I promise I didn't forget you. I could never forget you.

"HMM HIC HNNHMMMM" I bit my arm near the elbow as hard as I could over my light sweater, to hush my cries still remembering flashes of my dream.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry Genny.

I won't take your uncle away.