Lust for Love

Chapter 46

The room seemed too bright for my eyes to adjust to.

Is it morning already?

Since the day I woke up, every morning I faced disappointment whenever Raina, the nurse, came to wake me up and get me changed into fresh set of clothes. My weak muscles put me in a disadvantage as I could neither walk nor lift anything with my hands which made running away harder too. So did the humiliating moments when I needed aid with bathroom breaks.

Nash visited me from time to time making sure to nag at me while hovering over me until I took my medicines. He didn't waste time in starting rehabilitaion program which I attended very reluctantly and were often noisy as Gray, Juvi or Tyler would visit and cause a ruckus trying to cheer me on.

Although Nathan never visited until just a week ago when Sherry insisted on visiting me. He looked really heartbroken yet he tried his best not to cry whenever he spoke and I would be lying if I said it didn't affect me.

I wonder if he found out about my pregnancy, even if he did it doesn't matter now anyway. They are dead and I can only try not to disappoint them any more. If only I could just stay trapped in this room and rot till the end of my time.

Alas it was a difficult task, especially having Tyler in my face almost every other day trying to feed me.

"Vivy?"

Meal times were another tiring battle. I was too soft for my own good, as I let them sway me with their manipulation. He'd bring lunch with him and not eat until I had eaten at least a couple of bites from my meals.

I realized I still cared deeply for my family, even if I was heartbroken and hurt. I couldn't just abandon them. They were my lingering attachment to the world but I can't seem to get rid of them either.

No, I was a coward.

I was stuck in an endless cycle of thoughts where I cared for them but I acted as if I didn't.

I was heartbroken but I was scared of healing from it.

* DOOR OPENS *

"Vivy!" Lucy hugged me tightly.

"Thank goodness."

What are you thankful for?

I remained impassive as usual but it seemed to unfaze Lucy.

"Is she done with her lunch?" She asked Tyler who complained to her about how little I ate.

They seem close. Do they know each other?

How did Lucy introduce herself?

Do they know abou....no I shouldn't care?

I'd rather not mess things up for her anymore. I wonder how is she coping up.

I never would have guessed Jacob had a sister but the way he treated her....

Suddenly my already dainty appetite died and I wanted to get out of that room as I rememebered how Lucy suffered because of me. I suddenly felt ashamed to face her.

It's suffocating.

I tried to push the bed table away as I slid my legs down to stand up, and almost stumbled the first couple of steps.

"Vivy!" Lucy caught me just in time and tried to persuade me against leaving the room but I just couldn't breathe.

I swat her hand away as I continued to walk out of the room alone but they followed me anyway.

"Wait, put this on. It's cold outside today." Tyler slipped me into his jacket and a pair of indoor slippers.

I didn't realize I was barefoot.