The Enchantress

72.

Princess Mina.

I was quiet all along our ride back to our kingdom. I was staring at the window of our carriage but not really looking outside for my mind wandered to other things.

I am not used to his coldness. Ever since this morning he's been that way. What would I expect, after what I said to him last night.

He who had left a war just for me. He who had fought Tyrians to save me. He who had sailed the sea just to rescue me. He who's not afraid to say how much he'll miss me. He who declared his love and promised to visit often as he could to a far away kingdom.

I've been thinking about it for a long time. He has been my savior and I'm not happy on the way he risks his life for me. To drop everything just to get to me.

I feel like it's Rowan all over again. I'm being loved so much more than I could give.

But with him is different. I know for a fact that he made me feel things that Rowan has never did.

He has always been so caring, so smiling, so warm... I was surprised when that change so sudden. Maybe because I'm not used to it.

Ugghhh! Why are things so complicated.

"Mina Sharon!"

I got startled on Sana's yell.

"Why are you yelling!?"

"I wouldn't if you heard me. Me and Papa have been calling you for a minute now."

"Oh..." I looked at Papa who looked worried. "Sorry. I was just thinking about things."

"I had expressed my concern, my dear. That what transpired might have traumatized you so much."

He was right. I was traumatized. But...

"I was. But Chaeyoung made sure that I was safe. He took care of me and help me cope up."

The realization of what I just said hit me. He had also been my pillar emotionally through the aftermath of what had happened. He had given me so much, more than I could ask for.

Yet I chose to hurt him and push him away... What a bad person I had become...

A pain made my heart throb...

I ignored it for I might cry, that would result in a lot more worry from Papa and Sana. I channeled out of my thoughts.

"... What a Prince he really is."

"I owe the Prince so much." He then looked at me curiously. "You do know why he does those things to you, my dear?"

Sana added. "Of course she does. The question is..." She leaned closer. "What will she do about it?"

I looked at them both and chose not to answer. I pretended my head hurts that I'll take a nap for a while.

A few days after...

I buried myself with work everyday. I'll only go back to my room to take a bath and sleep. I'd rather stay at my lab than be alone in my room with my thoughts and feelings that's been bothering me.

There was a big feast tonight in celebration my mom's birthday. I did not recall much of it for I sneaked out and went back to my room bringing a bottle of mead with me. Sana apparently saw me and sneaked out herself too.

"Aha! I knew you're planning something but I did not expect this!" She said purposely loudly opening my door to surprise me. But it was she who was surprised seeing me drinking mead.