- sad content
- the song fits so well
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It's been 2 months since me and vinnie broke up, after being together for 7 years. He didn't give me an explanation. He just left. He packed up his things and he got in his car and drove off. He was living in his own apartment posting on social media looking happier than ever.
I guess i held him back from being happy or i didn't make him happy enough. I haven't moved. I've been on the couch laying in a fetal position with a blanket and the tv on. I missed him more than anything.
I never stopped loving him. My apartment was empty. I was alone. But today, my parents are coming to see me. I don't when they'll be here, but i cleaned up the place to make it look like im doing okay.
*flashback*
"Don't fall!" Vinnie chucked. "No promises" i giggled. I ended up slipping off the counter, and he caught me. "Are you okay?" He asked very worried. "I'm okay" i tried to hold back my laugh because of the worried look on his face. He set me down and started laughing.
He then, picked me up throwing me over his shoulder. "vinnie what are you doing?" I giggled. He set me down on the couch, and laid on top of me. "You're lucky we're done cleaning." I giggled once again.
He chuckled as I ran my fingers through his hair. "y/n?" "yeah?" We spoke softly. "what if we had a baby?" My heart did flips. I had been waiting for this question. "Is it something you would want?" I asked. I'm 19 and he's 20. We're still pretty young, so it took me by surprise that he's asking me this.
"I would love to have a family with you. Imagine it.. we could be laying like this while our little girl or boy is running around with toys or jumping onto us." I admired how he described it. "I know it's a big responsibility.. and we are young.. but i think we could do it." He looked up at me.
I pecked his lips. "Okay.. i think we can do it." I smiled at him. His eyes lit up and rolled me over where I was on top of him and he began to make out with me. I giggled through the kiss.
"We're not making a baby on the couch." I said trying to hold back my giggle. He picked me and throwing me over his shoulder, and taking us to the bedroom.
*flashback over*
I hadn't realized I had been standing there for 30 minutes. My parents knocked on the door. I opened it and put on a fake smile.
*flashback*
"babe! My parents are here!" I waited for vinnie. He was always nice my parents as if they were his own. He always go my mom flowers.
"Hi mom!" She passed me and hugged vinnie. My dad hugged me then my mom did. She loved vinnie. He handed her the flowers. She always kept them and was always appreciated that he did that.
*flashback over*
"y/n.." i looked at them. "Come in" i said. They looked at me worried. "how are you doing?" My mom asked. "I could be better.." i held back my tears. They pulled me into a hug. They knew I wasn't okay.
"seven years mom.. why would he end it just like that?" I asked hoping she would have the answers he couldn't give me. "We're you two having issues?" I pulled away from both of them.
*flashback*
"Y/N!" Vinnie yelled from the room. "What?" I yelled back. "Come here I wanna hold your pretty body. I miss you." He yelled once again. I giggled and went into the room.
I got on the bed and he immediately pulled me into him and fell asleep.
It was now the next morning. I slowly and quietly got out of bed as i had to get ready for work. After my shower i got dressed and when I came out, vinnie was still asleep. I kissed his cheek, and headed out the door. "I love you" he yelled. "I love you!" I yelled back. This was almost a daily thing. His work was social media.
He made money off of there, while I decided to get a job at a coffee place that has good pay. It was now 7pm, and it was dark out. But i had an off feeling when I left this morning. I got home, and walked inside. It was empty? Pictures were gone, some of our decorations were gone.. some blankets and pillows were gone.
I heard clattering in the bedroom so i set my keys on the counter along with my phone and headed towards the bedroom. I saw everything in our bedroom gone. The only thing left was the bed, dresser, tv and my stuff. Everything on his nightstand was gone. Everything in the bathroom that was his was gone.
"vinnie?" I spoke softly. He zipped up his bag and put it in his car. He walked past me like nothing. He came back inside and checked the kitchen. "Im sorry, y/n." He said, but he didn't sound like he felt bad.
"can you tell me what's going on?" I pleaded. He stood in front of me, and looked down at me. "this isn't working anymore.. and im sorry to do it this way but i knew if I waited till you got home and told you then i wouldn't have left."
"so I've been keeping you from leaving?"
"No.. i just don't think this is gonna work anymore.. I'm sorry" tears ran down my face as he left me in the kitchen in shock. He closed the door and i heard him drive off.
I slid down the cabinets and put my face in my knees and cried. I cried so loudly it echoed off the walls. I laid in a fetal position on the floor. Why would he do this to me?
*flashback over*
"No. We were fine the night before. We hadn't argued in like 4 months.. things were going great we were talking about having kids." I explained.
It was now 8:30pm, and my parents just left. I changed into a baggy shirt with my sleep shorts. I went into the kitchen and put my face in my hands. I was back to being all alone. I was holding back tears.
Then, there was a knock. I looked at the door. It's not my parents they're already home. I heard another knock. I walked over to the door, hesitant to open it. I eventually got the courage to open the door.
And that's when I saw him. vinnie. He looks like he hasn't slept in days. "I know you hate me and I know you don't wanna see me right now but li-"
I cut him off by wrapping my arms around his neck pulling him down to my height. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around me. I began to cry. He stood up straight, taking me with him. I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"y/n.." he rubbed my back. "no.. don't leave.. just hold me for a little longer.." I cried. "y/n.. listen." He set me down and closed the door. He moved my hair out of my face. I looked at him. I just wanted to touch him.. I missed him. I missed all of him.
"I need to explain myself." He said. I sat on the counter, and he stood in front of me. "I left because.. I thought you were gonna leave." I jumped off the counter. "What? You- you left me because you thought I was going to leave and hurt you?" He nodded.
"Wow, vinnie. You really let that get in your head, huh? Why would you ever think that? You know how much pain you've caused me? I haven't slept in who knows how long." I began to cry again.
I managed to push him but he didn't move. "I sat here for 2 months in the same spot crying, hurting all because you listened to your mind instead of your heart" i yelled jabbing my finger into his chest. But it didn't last long until my head fell onto his chest.
I wasn't mad at him anymore. I just wanted him I felt at home when he was here. I clutched his shirt, but then wrapped my arms around him. "Please.." i began to talk through my tears. He pulled me apart from him.
"Please what?" He tried to wipe my tears away but there were too many. But he had been lightly crying as well. "Please don't leave me again.." he pulled me into him.
"Leaving you was the worst mistake I've ever made, and I'm not going to make that mistake again.
- gonna make a part two but it's gonna be vins pov ;)
- I loved this one! I felt the song was the cherry on top!
- love ya!!
