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7:33pm
I had just gotten home from work, and was not met with vinnie. Strange. I went to our room and peeked through the cracked door. He was jerking off to a skinny girl. I looked nothing like that.
She didn't have hip dips. I did. She weight 90 pounds. I weighed 110. How long has he been doing this? I went into the other bathroom, locking the door and began crying. After 10 minutes, I pulled myself together. I wiped my tears and opened the door.
Right when vinnie came out. "Hey! When did you get here?" He came over to me, hugging me. "I just got here." I managed to laugh. But I was hurt. He used to look at other skinnier girls, but he told me I was perfect so I forgot about it.
But he seems to be doing this which makes me feel insecure. "I was just about to cook dinner." He said, keeping his hand on my waist, guiding me into the kitchen. "Im just gonna go change."
I headed to the room. I made a dumb mistake but I wanted to know. I checked his history, and he's been doing this for a couple months. I put his shirt on, and a pair of sleep shorts. I looked at myself in the mirror. I felt insecure. He should be embarrassed to be seen with me.
When I came down, he was almost done. He always made me a plate first which he did. "Im not hungry." He his softened as i had my arms wrapped around my stomach. "Did you start?"
"No.. I'm just not hungry." He tried to convince me to eat because I haven't eaten anything all day but I once again told him no. After he ate, we cleaned up together. "Im gonna shower."
I went into the bedroom and the bathroom. I started the water, removing all my clothes. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was nothing compared to the girls he looked at.
After my shower, I put my sleep clothes on and laid down. He didn't know I was laying down. He came in the room 10 minutes later, and laid behind me. He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me so I was closer to him.
"Are you okay?" I nodded. I didn't want to tell him I knew. "Just a busy day at work." He began to play with my hair helping me relax.
It's now the next day. I hadn't eaten. He began to worry. It was around dinner time again. He made me something but I refused. He made me breakfast and lunch too. I also refused. I was now in the shower. I had been in there for a long time.
He came in, and began to ask me what was going on. "You haven't eaten since the day before yesterday.. why aren't you eating?"
"You like skinnier girls.. so I'm trying to look like the girls you look at." I said looking up at him as he moved my hair out of my face. "I saw you yesterday when I got home.. in our room looking at her. And then i checked your history when i went to change and saw that you've been doing it for a few months." I confessed, holding back more tears.
He sighed deeply, and hugged me. "Im disgusted with myself, y/n. That was my first time doing it since I met you.. I stopped after I gave you my number but I don't know what it was that gave me the urge to do it again. It wasn't my intention to hurt you or make you feel this way. I promise."
"I just don't understand why you did it.. am I that bad?" I cried. "No, no, no. You're absolutely perfect, my love. I'm so sorry.." he wiped my tears away. "Let's get you out of the shower and let me make you your favorite meal, yeah?"
I slowly nodded. A smile crept up my face.
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