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vinnies been pretty distant this past week. we had a date last night and he didn't show up. which is unlike him. but im on my way to his house to see him. mainly because i haven't seen him in a while. I pulled into his driveway, getting out of the car.
I took a deep breath before walking in, and going up to his room. on my way to his room, i heard faint moaning. i brushed it off as he may be watching a movie or porn. i opened his door to see a girl on top of him, moaning his name.
but they both turned their heads when they saw me. she immediately got off of him, and put on her clothes leaving. he put on his clothes too and stood in front of me. "i-" i cut him off.
"are you serious vinnie?" he looked down and ran his hand through his hair. "look at you." He scoffed. I looked down at myself. "what's wrong with me?"
"everything! you think i actually liked you? that's sad y/n. i only wanted you for sex and you're not even good at that! why do you think i was with her? she's skinnier.. way skinnier than you." he laughed.
i slapped him across the face and left, silencing my cries. i got in my car and that's when I sobbed. I got home and weighed myself. 115 pounds.. he's right.. I'm not skinny.
I ended up crying myself to sleep, but it was hard because vinnie kept calling and texting saying "i didn't mean it please come back and we can talk it out."
But i ignored each call and each text. I eventually cried myself to sleep.
I woke up the next morning and checked my phone. 36 missed calls, 70 unread messages. I sat up, and rested my hand in my hair calling him. I sniffled at the ringing sound. "y/n?" he said in his sleepy voice. "please forgive me.. I'm sorry i didn't mean it, and i didn't mean to cheat on you.. just come over and we can talk I don't want to let you go.."
I bit my lip to stop myself from crying. "that- no.. you shouldn't have said it either way. i never thought you would say something like that to me.." a tear or two left my eyes and ran down my cheek. "I didn't mean it.."
"it doesn't matter anymore.. im done with you." I sniffled. "why.. don't do this.."
"you stood me up, stopped answering my calls and text unless it's convenient for you, cheated, and said I wasn't skinny, said im not even good at sex when this whole time you told me I was the best you've ever had.. you were the first to take it vinnie.." and I hung up the phone not wanting to hear from him anymore.
I put my face in my hands and sobbed.
*time skip, a month later.. sorry*
It's been a month since everything. I haven't eaten much, so I've lost some weight. I'm as skinny as the girl vinnie cheated on me with. I can only eat 3 times a week, which causes me to throw up a lot.
But today was going to be different. I was going out for the first time since everything. Maybe i was going to try and eat something. I got dressed in comfortable clothes, and headed out.
*time skip*
I only had 2 bags in my hands. It helped cheer me up, but as i was walking i replayed his words in my head. "you think i actually liked you? that's sad y/n. i only wanted you for sex and you're not even good at that! why do you think i was with her? she's skinnier.. way skinnier than you."
I felt the need to throw up, and luckily there was a trash right next to me, to which I threw up in. I felt a hand on my back. "are you okay..?" A sweet soft voice asked me. I turned around, and felt embarrassed when I saw him because he was pretty. He had beautiful green eyes, i was up to his shoulder at least. "yeah.. im sorry if you.. saw that.." i wiped my mouth.
