Lost (BTS Edition)(OT7xReader)

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"What?" I stared at him in disbelief. How had he come to suggest something like that?

"I'm so sick of all these rules... Our whole life has been governed by rules for the last few years, you're not allowed to do this, you're not allowed to do that... And I've always been made to make sure that everyone follows all the rules. I don't want to anymore, I want to break the rules, who wants to punish me?" he explained boldly.

"But the no dating each other, no relationship... wasn't that your rule?" I asked, irritated, and he shook his head.

"None of that is my rule... it all came from the management and they forced me to follow it. They knew what was going on with us, they let us as long as we didn't cause any problems and individual relationships inevitably lead to problems. They also wanted to avoid a couple forming and isolating themselves from the rest of the group. Yes, I carried on here as usual at the beginning... but the longer we're here, the less sense I see in it. We are free here... If I had known beforehand what would happen to us... I would have taken more books with me, but I would have gotten on that plane anyway... well, I wouldn't have let the manager fly with me." his words wandered through my mind, settling and I understood what he meant. He had a lot of responsibility, whether he wanted it or not and now he was finally about to free himself, wanted to get rid of this burden and just live... Unfortunately, in the eyes of the others, he was the rule police and nobody trusted him to break the rules. I understood him too well... I had always been focused on learning, here I was a different person, we were actually free here... Mina wouldn't recognize me if she saw me like this, what I had let myself in for, against all reason and the rules of society, however much I enjoyed it. How often had she called me a prude, while here I was living out my sex life with seven men to the full, not feeling ashamed or having a guilty conscience. Why should I, I didn't even sleep with men I didn't see again the next morning, like Mina... I had feelings for all of them and we had a relationship. Then it was just an unusual relationship, it was just different from the norm... so what? It was our life, we were comfortable with it and nobody had the right to judge us. We knew what we were doing and nobody got hurt.

But how was I supposed to make Namjoon realize that he was actually the only one who was missing, that we had been deceiving him the whole time, that we had seen him as the "bad guy" who could stand in our way? We had done him such an injustice... again. Guiltily, I snuggled up to him.

"Have you ever thought about the fact that you don't really need rules to prevent people from isolating themselves? If everyone loves each other anyway, if you're sleeping together anyway... why not have a polyamorous relationship with everyone?" I looked at him intently, so much depended on his answer, after all, we needed him to be complete.

"That would actually be the perfect solution... but would the others go along with it? Jungkook and Yoongi would just fight again and Tae... I don't know... Jin, Jimin and Hobi would be right behind us." he thought about it.

"Us too." we heard Jungkook, who had just walked to the tent with Taehyung.

"Seriously?" asked Namjoon in shock.

"Yoongi too..." I interjected and his eyes widened.

"You've already planned all this, haven't you?" he asked and we grinned apologetically at him.

"Are you mad?" Tae asked him and he shook his head with a smile.

"No, I'm just surprised... actually, it makes it all easier... good. From now on, no more rules, no more restrictions, no more hiding feelings... And you're ok with that too?" he then asked me and I nodded.

"More than ok... "