Teenage Love

Chapter 59: The Talk

I groaned as I turned over, feeling something pushed against me

I looked down and saw Alessia sleeping peacefully on my chest

I smiled softly down at her, today was the day I was going to give her something I've kept tight to me, no one has been able to see or even know about it but she deserves to see it.

I felt Alessia start to stir, moving her head closer to my neck as her arms wrapped tighter around my waist

"Morning" i whispered as I pressed a kiss to the side of her head

"Morning" Alessia mumbled back pressing a lazy kiss to my neck

I lifted the back of her t-shirt up and started to draw shapes onto her back as she went through the stages of waking up

Alessia started to move to get off me, I held onto her wrist stopping her from leaving me

"Where you going?" I asked

"To make us some breakfast" Alessia said

"You relax, let me take care of it" i said leaning up and pressing a kiss to her lips before standing up and pushing her to lay back down

"Don't burn my kitchen down" Alessia teased as I walked out of the room

"I'll try my best" I laughed as I walked into the kitchen

Alessia and I had decided to have our chat now, it was around midday and it felt better to do it now then have it lingering over us the whole day

"Sooo" I said as I messed with the hair band on my wrist

"You don't want to get married then?" Alessia asked straight up

"I don't know less, I trust you fully but I don't know if I can do it" I sighed

"Is that because of your parents?" Alessia asked, moving her hand to place on top of mine

" Yeah I guess but also the fact that I've told myself my whole life that I don't need to get married, there's no need to, it's just an extra label to a relationship, a huge commitment for something that could turn to shit in seconds" I said

"I feel like there's a time budget on it, if you get to the 5 years dating mark you've got to propose and like what if I'm not ready to get married, what if I'm still trying to get my head around getting married, trying to forget about my parents lives and how they were stuck" I added

"We can do it when we are ready Alex, 5 or 20 years I couldn't care less, for fuck sake if we didn't even get married as long as I'm still with you then I don't care what we are... I think I've come to the realisation that as long as I'm with you married or not I'll forever be happy" Alessia said as I looked up at her, I still felt guilty... I had ruined her dreams because I couldn't get over the marriage of my parents 

"And I know you don't want kids, but we haven't even hit our 30s yet, we have only just started our football careers things might change when we get older" Alessia added

I nodded along, things might change, I've got to keep an open mind, in 10 years time I might want kids, I might not... we will have to see

It was silent for a few minutes before I spoke up

"I'm sorry about the dare" I said

"I'm sorry I cussed you to feel humiliated and upset" I added

"Yes I felt humiliated and wondered if it was a whole lie but as the days went on and I thought about it I realised that no matter how we got to this spot if it was from that day you sat next to me in maths or from that dare I'm so thankful we ended up together. That dare was stupid, really fucking stupid but I fell first and then you fell harder and at the end of the day how ever we got to this point I wouldn't trade you and I for the world" Alessia said