Never | Lee Haechan

It's okay to not be perfect

"Three words that never come easy, but you're more than they ever could be.

Now I just wanna know. Are you?

Yeah, I'm fine"

- Capsize

Playlist

HOLO - Lee Hi
Cry with you - Jeremy Zucker
Capsize - FRENSHIP, Emily Warren
Gangsta's Paradise - Coolio, L.V. (Basically just for the action scenes)
Fine - Taeyeon

Disclaimer: Mentions of death, murder and blood

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"Is that all?" He asked as he walked back into the room after leaving last one of the four boxes at his car. There wasn't much to take from the dorm aside from clothes and books. Afterall, it was just a temporary arrangement.

"Hmm," she hummed absentmindedly, sitting on her bed, fiddling with her plushie, immersed in rumination. Her eyes were devoid of any emotion and lacked colour. That's how it's been for the past six days. Haechan glanced over at her and internally sighed. So much happened in such a short period of time he couldn't blame her for closing herself off. She was fine for the most of it, but she'd suddenly go silent at times — like right now.

He knew what she was thinking about. They had visited the gynaecologist the day after finding out and it was revealed that there was 50 percent chance of the fetus not developing properly given her cysts and she was prescribed about seven different medications.

"I....don't know if I can do this, Haechan. I'm sorry...you might've made a great father but I guess I'm not ready to be a mother. I'm starting to think I'll never be,"

That was all she told him after that on the topic. She didn't let him reply to that or talk after that. He had realised by then how insecure she was about all of this. If she wasn't being glum and silent, the rest of the time she'd act overly optimistic and overwork herself as a distraction. Whether it was cleaning, studying, writing, learning a new piece on her guitar or singing.

The date set to the clinic was today and they had to go. The brunette knew she cried the entire night but she refused to talk about it or even talk at all since the morning.

"Do you wanna stay here longer?" He softly questioned and she plainly nodded, without moving her eyes from the soft toy. Knowing her and after receiving a lot of concerned nagging from Jaemin, he had figured out she needed space pretty often. So even though he wanted to stride up to her and give her a hug, he decided against it to respect her space. The boy backed away and closed the door behind him with a sigh.

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6 hours later
LDS residence, Haechan's place

"This....does not sound like something you planned. Except the last part," Renjun said as he placed his hand on chin in thought.

Technically, in truth, it wasn't exactly his plan - it was Jiae's. He just modified it to fit their agenda better. Yeah the girl at some point had forced him to sit down and break it all down to her. Surprisingly, keeping her occupied with this helped her act more normal.

But as of now, the brunette hated how Renjun knew right off the bat the last part was indeed the part he planned.

"And what makes you say that-?" Haechan questioned, folding his arms over his chest, leaning back on his chair. They all were sitting around a meeting table to discuss the newly formed plan. Well, not quite a meeting table but rather a eight ball pool recreational table which was located at their hide out built under Haechan's house. So very professional of them.