my wild mate

chapter 40

Carter's pov.

Me and carl meet Shaun, Billy, and Alfie to take our turn to watch the hideout. Billy and Alfie are Carl's best men. They're quiet but deadly, and that's what I like in a team. Both are over 6 feet of pure muscle, but they're very quiet and light on their feet for their size. We all mind the link to make sure we're not heard. The witch Shaun is happy to sit back and relax in his own world, which is helpful as he can't mindlink like us. As we approach the hideout, Shaun masks our scent for us.

We stay far back as we can, but thankfully, due to our wolf, we have excellent hearing and vision. 

I lean against a tree and watch "This shit is boring." Billy pipes up.

"I know, but it's not always action, you know that," Alfie replies, and I nod in agreement.

We watch the gaurds, but they're just stood quietly. Not moving

I notice movement by one of the windows "get down." I mindlink them, and we all lie down flat on our stomachs. Stuart stands at the window, cooking with the out for a minute. He takes a sip from a beer bottle and walks away from the window.

We stay for another two hours before heading back to the pack grounds. I mindlink josh to let him know nothing has changed.

We get back and say our goodbyes before I head home to my mate and my baby. I've never been scared of fighting. I would always put myself out to protect my alpha and my pack, but now a new fear washes over me. The thought of not coming home to my mate and daughter, I'm fighting for them, but they're also my reason to stay alive.

I walk in and see Emily asleep on the sofa. Olive is waking up in her basket so I walk over and pick her up "hello beautiful" I kiss her head and walk to the kitchen to make her bottle. I find the milk Emily has expressed for her and put it in a bottle before putting it in some hot water to warm up. Olive begins fussing in my arms, and I slowly rock her to calm down. A few minutes later, her bottle is warm and I go back to the lounge to sit on the other sofa. I lie olive in my arms and place the bottle in her mouth. She quickly latches on to the teat and starts drinking. I'm in complete awe of this beautiful little girl, and I can't wait to watch her grow up.

Once she's finished her bottle I burp her and change her nappy and decide ill try the baby carrier thing that Emily always uses, I get pissed off when I can't do it properly and mindlink shannon to help me so I don't wake Emily. A few moments later, Shannon is in the kitchen with me helping me. She gets the wrap on and places olive in there for me. "There you go, this whole dad thing suits you, Carter,"

"You think?" She nods at me

"I don't think it does shannon, I try my best but we're so busy with this rogue thing I'm not at home much and when I am it's like olive only wants Emily" sadness fills me as I feel like a failure some times. I try and help, but Olive just screams and only settles on Emily, and I feel like she hates me already.

Shannon smiles at me. "Think of this way, Emily grew her and birthed. It's Emily's milk she's drinking. Emily is all she's ever known. Her voice, her heartbeat, it's all olive knows right now. She's still so tiny, but I promise as she grows up, it'll change. I love my dad with my whole heart, and I respected him more than anyone. When he was taken away, it was the worst pain. It might be hard now, but I know one day she'll be a daddy's girl just like I am. "

She's right. I watched shannon grow up, and I know she loves mandy, but she was Derrick's little shadow. She wanted to be with him all the time. It was Derrick she went to when she was scared or needed help with something. Derrick taught her to fight, be strong and independent , and mandy was always the one she went to for anything emotional

"Thank you, shannon." I give her a side hug and look down at the girl now strapped to my chest. "I appreciate you helping,"

"No worries," she leaves and shuts the door behind her. Now, with olive on my chest and my hands free, I attempt to tidy to the kitchen and cook us some food. Half an hour later, Emily comes into the kitchen and smiles at me "awww look at you two!!" I walk over and kiss her."How was your sleep? "

"It was definitely needed,"

"I've cooked dinner, it's only pasta, but I was scared of accidentally burning olive or something."

"That's fine, thank you, baby." we both take a seat and eat our dinner. Once we've finished, olive starts stirring, Emily looks up at me. " i think it's time this one had a bath, and we can go to bed.

I follow Emily upstairs as she gets the bath ready. I get olive a clean vest and baby grow out and place it on the bed with the nappy and moisturiser.  Emily comes in and removes olive from the baby carrier and undresses her before putting her in the bath. I sit back as I watch Emily smile at our baby and talk to her while washing her. My heart bursts with love and happiness. 

Once olive is bathed and dressed, me and I get into bed and put the tv on while she feeds olive, I'm in awe at how strong my mate has been. It wasn't an easy start, but she's doing amazing and takes everything in her stride. She's an amazing mother, and I'll thank the goddess every day for her.

Eventually, olive settles, and I pull Emily close and go to sleep praying everything will be okay.