my wild mate

chapter 47

Mandys pov

I've waited for this moment for years. Josh finally caught the bastard that killed my mate. I've spent so many nights thinking of what I would say and do to him when he's caught then it got to a point where I thought he'd never be captured so when josh said they had him I was filled with happiness, fear, anger and sadness.

Watching Derrick's life drain from his eyes has haunted my dreams every night since. I'll never forget seeing his blood covered body, the blood pouring from his neck, his beautiful blue eye fading as he told me he loved me one last time.

The pain me and my wolf felt when Irene said that couldn't save him is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. A human losing their spouse is devastating, but when a shifter losses their mate, their soul literally breaks. When we complete the mating bond, our souls tie together, so when one is taken, the other suffers a pain.

Most go insane or commit suicide after as they can't cope with the pain. I've thought about it many times, I've thought it would be better and I could be with Derrick again but I couldn't put my kids through that. I couldn't put them through the pain of losing both of us. Watching josh step up and take the alpha titles was so bitter sweet. I am so proud of the man and alpha he has become, but he shouldn't of taken the title the way he did.  Derrick should of passed it on as he wanted to retire. We had so many plans for when he retired, we was going to travel the world together.

I know he would of been so proud of our babies. They've both turned out to be amazing, strong, loyal, independent, caring people who have now met amazing mates. Shannon never got to tell her dad she was gay but I know he would of been proud of her, all we ever wanted was for our kids to be happy.

I look at the picture of us taken at our anniversary party the week before he passed. Josh is on the far left, his arm wrapped around Derrick's shoulder, they're so alike its scarey some times. Derrick has his arm around me and and I'm leaning my head on his chest leaning into his side, Shannon is next to me laying her head on her dads arm that he has around my shoulder, me and Shannon are the double of each other but she has her dad's bright blue eyes. We're all smiling at camera. That night me and Derrick celebrated 25 years married. We had been mated for 3 years before we married. We never imagined the next week he would be taken from us and I still don't know why.

My whole world came crashing down that night. I haven't been the same since. I decide to face him. I need joshs permission to see him even though I'm his mum he's still my alpha and I will always respect that. I mindlink him to ask for a chat. Within two minutes he's in the kitchen, I ask for his permission and I'm shocked when he says yes.

I follow him to the cells, the guards all nod at us and let us in. I haven't been in here for years, Derrick and Allen always delt with the prisoners. I didn't want any part of what they done inside theses walls. My Derrick was an amazing man but I know he had a very tough and some would say evil side when he done what he thought was right to protect his pack.

We stop at door and josh looks towards it "he's in there mum but I don't want you near him" I turn to face him

"I asked for permission as respect as you're still my alpha josh but remember I am still your mother, a grown woman who was luna to this pack. I'm not as weak and fragile as you think I am"

"I'm not saying your weak mum I'm -"

"No Joshua. I'm doing this"

I turn to the gaurds "open the door"

They look at josh and he nods his head. They take the keys off their belt and insert a key, I hear the lock turn and they pull the heavy door open. It squeaks and I see him. He doesn't move, he's just on the floor. His arms chained above his head. He looks weak and pale, the door slamss shut behind me