I Don't Care If Heaven Won't Take Me Back

Chapter Eighteen: Stella

"I'm sorry I have more.." I stopped to breath out the pain "I just think I'm having my baby...."

Pain. All I feel is pain, I have always heard labor hurts but not this bad. We are finally at the hospital and they have me in a room. After we left graduation early the pain just kept getting worse.

"Jack can I yell at you?" I screeched in in pain squeezing his hand.

"Yea" Jack said being the good boyfriend he is.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK!" I screened at the top of my lungs as the pain got worse.

"Feel better?" He sighed trying not to laugh.

"Yes" I breathed out " thank you"

They hand me bouncing on a ball trying to make this go faster I am only one centimeter away from being able to push, so hopefully any minute now I can start and the baby will be here.

"I wasn't due for three weeks" I said to the doctor as he got in the room and prepared me.

"Don't worry" he smiled "it is completely normal for mother to go into labor up to a month early. Especially with your first child"

I squeezed jacks hand while I cried out another contraction. How did the lady from nineteen kids in counting do this so many freaking times?

"Your doing so good Kate" Katherine said wiping the sweat off my head.

I Asked her to be in the room with me and Jack through all of this. She has done this three times so  she can help me through it.

"Kate are you ready to push?" My doctor asked.

"Yes"

JACK P.O.V

This is it, I'm about to be a dad. I can't believe today off all days she went into labor. When I took her off the stage everyone cheered for us, it was a good way to graduate. Kate's being so strong, i am so proud of her. All the pain she is going through will be so worth it. In just a matter on minutes we will have our daughter or son. I can't even explain how I feel, I'm happy, scared, excited and nervous all at the same time.

"Your doing great baby" I leaned down to kiss her head as she pushed.

"Almost there Kate" the doctor said.

Kate took a break to breath before leaning forward again pushing with all her might.

"I can't" she breathed out crying "it hurts really bad"

I leaned  down holding her face and whipping her tears "you can do this baby, it will be over soon" I kissed her and she pushed once more.

Then my heart stopped I heard my child cry for the first time. I squeezed Kate's hand as I looked over for the first time bringing tears to my eyes.

"it's a girl!" The doctor said over our daughters crying "Jack" he said handing me a pair of scissors I cut the umbilical cord.

"She's perfect" Kate cried as they laid hard on Kate.

"Yes she is" I smiled playing with her little fingers.

Everyone left our room so we could spend some time alone time with her. She was so little and delicate. She had Kate's eyes and ears but the rest of her features definitely come from me.

"I can't believe she's finally here" I smiled as I sat on the bed with Kate and the baby.

"What do you want to name her?" Kate asked looking up to me "I think she looks like a Stella"

"Stella is beautiful babe" I kissed her head. "Stella Katherine Gilinsky me and your mom love you vary much"     

KATE P.O.V

Precious that's how I would describe Stella in one word. She's so little only 5 pound 6oz and only 17 inches long. She is beautiful and all ours. We will help her grow, we will guid her in the right path we will support her, we will treasure her and most of all we will love her.

"So beautiful" Katherine said holding her for the first time while David looked over her shoulder.

"Dad haha your a grandpa" Jack made fun of his dad "old man"

"You think your funny?" David laughed at Jack while he nodded his head yes.

Eventually everyone left, tomorrow Madeline, Tessa and the boys are coming around to meet here but for tonight we just want to be with her alone. I wonder what it will be like when we leave the hospital and have to do this on our own. The nurses help so much, the thought Jack how to bath and change her diaper tonight. It was cute to see much he was actually into it. Right now Jack is sitting on the chair next to me while I'm holding Stella, our salience was intruded when someone lightly knocked on the door and walked in.

"Tessa told me" my mother said walking into the room. I just sat silently starring at her trying not to let the tears fall. After all this time of not supporting me of kicking me out of my home and pretty much leaving me to fend for myself she thinks it's okay to show up?

"I think it's best if you leave" Jack said the nicest way possible, he could tell I was uncomfortable. My mom stood there frozen as her eyes watered.

"I left your father" she said making me look up "you were right, I didn't agree with him, what we did was not right. You needed me and I wasn't there for any of it, you were right Kate I was afraid to admit it"

"I needed you to admit it they day you made me leave.. It's too late now" I said looking at my nails picking them.

"Are you Jack?" She asked him as he still sat next to me. He nodded his head yes "thank you for taking care of my daughter when I couldn't be the mother I should have been.. And Kate I'm so sorry, I hope someday you can forgive me" she cried leaving to the room.

Jack grabbed Stella from me, I placed my head in my hands crying. Jack did take care of me when she didn't. Part of me wanted to hug her and tell her how much I missed her, the other part wanted to shove her out the door as I screamed never talk to me again. I don't get how she could do what she did. Stella might not even be a day old yet but I know already I would never kick her to the side like my mother and father did me.

"It's okay baby" Jack said soothing me as he laid on the bed with me placing Stella between us "we're a family"he said as we both grabbed on of her tiny hands.

"You and her are all I need" I smiled at him.

For now on Jack and Stella are my world, my
Only focus. It's all about the future now what it hold for us. It might still be unwritten that's okay, all I know if I'm looking forward to see what it holds for us.