I Don't Care If Heaven Won't Take Me Back

Chapter Twenty Six

Okay, so I think I look pretty damn good. I curled my hair witch I never do and actually did my makeup for once. I decided on black leather skinnies and my favorite Blink-182 shirt, jack doesn't like them much but I love them and plus this shirt makes my boobs look amazing and I know thats more important to him anyways. For shoes I decided on a pair on simple black heals to top it all off.

"Okay dose mommy look sexy" I asked Stella as she jumped in her bouncy chair "that's  right you don't talk yet" I laughed nervously giving her a kiss.

"You look different" Dorothy said walking into the room as I put in my earrings.

"I'm really trying to impress jack tonight.. I don't know why I am so nervous" I shook as I put my last erring in.

"You can impress him but still be yourself, darling you look nothing like you" she said picking Stella up.

"To be honest this is me. I would have never been able to dress like this before with my parents being who they were they wouldn't approve and after having Stella I didn't have the energy. But this is what I have always pictured my true self to be" I smiled, for the firs time in a long time I'm feeling super good about myself.

"Bye stell" I ran up to give her s kiss.

"Have fun tonight" Dorothy cheered me on, I may have let her in with what was going on between me and jack. Not the full details but some.

"Oh wow right on time" I laughed as I opened the door to see Cameron standing there.

"Oh.. Um.. Wow"

"Huh?" I questioned.

"Saying this as friend but you like hot as hell" he laughed "are those leather?"

"Yup! Thank you now let's go!"

We walked to the car and stared to drive off. The more we drive the more nervous I seemed to get. What if jack doesn't like this and what if he thinks different of me. It's true what Dorothy said I really don't look like my usual self at all. But I like it and I feel sexy so he would think so too right?

We pulled up to a huge house almost bigger then ours. Cameron stepped out the car and my stomach instantly dropped. Im more nervous then I thought, I saw jacks car even though I knew he was here seeing it seems to make the nerve worse for some reason.

"Is this a good idea?"

"Yea you'll have fun!" Cameron laughed grabbing my hand walking us inside. We walked through the doors into something I have never seen before there has to be at least two hundred people here not one face that is familiar.

"Cameron!" I heard someone yell, I looked over to see a  brown curly haired boy and another tall brown haired boy one that almost has a jaw line as good as jacks walking over to us.

"Hey guys!" He bro hugged them while I stood awkwardly "this is Kate a long time friend of mine"

"Nice to meet you Kate I'm JC" the curly haired one said. "And I'm Kian nic- is that a blink-182 shirt? are you a fan"

"Probably their biggest" I laughed "I take it you are"

"Huge.. What's your favorite song?" He asked.

"Rock show.. I always use to imagine it was about me growing up" I laughed along with Kian.

"And I always use to imagine myself singing it" he laughed. "I went and saw them live once they were amazing!"

"Jealous! I wish I was never able too" I sighed I always wanted to see them live. I remember when they came to Omaha I thought of the perfect plan to sneak out to go to the show but there was a church event  I had to be at that night and was heart broken.

"Their coming to LA soon! We should go, no one around here likes them other then me"

"I would love too!" I cheered "thanks for the invite"

"Anything for a pretty girl" he smiled back. Wait? Is he flirting with me? "We should get going see you soon?"

"Yea I guess" I awkwardly laughed.

Me and Cameron walked around for a while. We stopped in the kitchen to grab a drink with all my nerves I made mine extra strong, I'm not one to be super sexy but tonight that's exactly what I want to be. I haven't seen any of the boys, jack or Madeline anywhere yet and we have pretty much been through the whole house. After stopping to talk to a few people Cameron knew we finally went outside where we saw Madeline, Johnson, Sammy and skate standing by a fire. As I was walked up to them I spotted something out of the corner of my eye causing me to stop right I between Madeline and skate.

"So this is why you didn't want me to come" I manged to speak as I felt my heart breaking into tiny pieces.

"Kat-"

"You all knew, this whole time"

"We have wanted to tell you but didn't know how" Madeline said looking down "Kate it's who he is, it's how he's always been. We all thought he changed for you we really did. But we didn't have the hart to tell you with the move and Stella" I zoned out and stopped listing to her it's all lies they knew and didn't tell me.

"Bullshit Madeline me and skate have wanted to tell her! Hell I even tried this morning and got cut off!" Sammy yelled to her but the music was to loud, I almost wish jack would have heard so he knew I was here instead of my eyes locked on him while his hands are roaming another girls body kissing her like he does me.

"Kate" skate said walking up to me "he's a pice of shit okay, we should have told you and I'm sorry we didn't.. But maybe it's better you found out this way, you saw it for yo-"

"There's no excuses" I said letting one tear fall "did you know?" I turned to ask Cameron.

"I promise you I had know idea" it made me feel good that one of my so called friends is telling me the truth.

While everyone stood silently waiting for me to speak I took out my phone and took a picture of jack sucking faces with that girl. Without even thinking I found his name in my contact list and sent it to him. I waited until I saw his phone in his jeans light up. He broke this kiss and looked down, he must have opened the text to see it. He dropped his hands form the girl slowly stepping away from her while she looked confused. He searched the crowed until his eyes finally landed on mine, that's when I let my tears fall. Those eyes the ones that I have been so consumed by the ones that have made me fall in love with him more everyday. Those eyes have lied and betrayed me and no matter how hard I tried I can no longer see any good in them.