I Don't Care If Heaven Won't Take Me Back

Chapter Thirty Six

"Oh hey man" Kian said as jack walked in while I just stood here not really knowing what to do. But what I do know is jack looks pissed vary pissed.

"Can I talk to Kate.. Alone." Jack said sternly.

"Umm yea" Kian stood up and putting his shoes on.

"Kian you don't have to leave" I tried stoping him.

"Yea he does" jack barked.

"Jack-"

"Kate it's fine" Kian sent me a smile "call me later" and with that he walked out the door and left.

I just stood there staring a jack dumbfounded. What makes him think he can walk in my house and tell my guest to leave? "What the hell?" I raised my voice at him.

"What?" Jack huffed sitting down on my couch "I should be saying that to you"

"What is your problem? You had no right doing that!" I yelled.

"I told you I wanted to talk about OUR daughter.. He doesn't need to be here Kate!"

"Okay? Well you could have asked me your question outside then left. You didn't need to come barging in here like you own the place.. I never did that to you and Madison"

"So now this is about me and Madison?" He yelled.

Okay so can someone tell me what is going on? Because I honestly have no idea what is happening. How did this go from Kian to Madison in zero point five seconds. "What no" I said putting my head in my hands.

"What more do I need to do to prove to you that I want you? I'v been nice I have been friendly dear lord I have done everything. And I come here to find you with Kian?"

"God jack" I said frustrated. "When will you get the point that I no longer want you? I gave you many chances and you ruined them! When I left I told you this would happen, I told you, you would want me someday and I wouldn't want you. Well that day is today jack. Get it through your head, I no longer want to be with you.. Anything with you" I yelled shacking from my anger.

"Fine" he snapped standing up "you want to be a little whore, then be one. You were always meant to be"

"You fucking asshole" I snapped pushing him.

"I'm the asshole?" He laughed mockingly " at least I didn't leave my kid for, four months to go and i quote 'find myself' "

"Your going to use that against me?" I said braking down "well in that case.. At least I never lied to my girlfriend and kid saying I was working when I was really fucking some little slut who doesn't know her head from her ass"

"Well you weren't fucking me.. Had to find it somewhere" he said with no sympathy once so ever.

"Sorry I was parenting our child. I wanted you jack god I wanted you! But the only time you wanted me was when you came home in the middle of the night drunk or high! I tried, I tried so damn hard to make us work. You ruined us.. Not me, you"

"Listen here you little bitch" jack said walking closer to me "you should be thanking me. I saved your sorry ass  when you had no where to go. Everything I have done has been for this family, you think we would have what we do if it wasn't for me? So if you think you tried so damn hard, then you have it wrong you shoulda tried harder"

I thought our brake up was hard? Well this is harder except I'm not heart broken. I'm pissed, saved my sorry ass? Okay thanks cuz it's not like I have never felt guilty for that.

"Is that why you came here?" I cried " to put me down? To make me feel guilty for coming to you when I had no where else to go and was carrying your child? To call me a whore? To tell me how horrible of a mother I am for wanting to go to a basket ball camp that I have dreamed of sense I was a kid? Yet you get to live your dream. Well then fine jack you got your way like you always do..I feel like shit" I said throwing my hands in the air giving up "are you happy now? You win" 

"Kate I-"

"You win jack. Your right about all of it." I cried sitting down "I wish it never happened, I wish that night never happened. I love Stella and wouldn't trade her for the world. I just wish it would have been with someone else."

"Kate i didn't mean I-"

"You should go" I said I stooping him walking with tears to open the door.

"Kate" jack said quietly.

"Leave" I snapped and he listened.

Once the door was closed I went to my couch and sat down. I needed to think about everything he has said. Maybe I should have tried harder, but what more could have I done? I tried so damn hard to make us work and he kept shooting me down.