I Don't Care If Heaven Won't Take Me Back

Chapter Fourty Six

It's been a week, do you know how heard it is keep a secret a huge one from the person you love for a whole week? It sucks but I can't seem to tell him, it never seems like the right time. I felt horrible the day after I spazzed at him about not wanting kids. I apologized the next day for they way I acted, jack acted if nothing had gone wrong witch makes me more freaked out.

We had Dorothy come to our house to watch Stella while we met everyone for lunch. Our reception to celebrate our marriage is tomorrow so we're having a pre get together. Honestly there is really no point to this one just an excuse to hangs out. And I can't complain about that.

"Please tell me you told him" skate whispered he sat town down at the table next to me, quiet enough so no one would hear. I gave him the look, the one that says no I haven't and don't ask me anymore questions because I feel horrible about it.

"Babe" jack said nudging me "what do you want to eat?"

"I'll have the chicken sandwich with a fruit bowl please" I said to the waitress while handing her my menu.

"Where is Johnson and Madeline?" Skate asked looking over to Sammy.

"Oh I got drama for you guys" Sammy laughed "so a few days ago Johnson found those pill pregnant people take" oh shit... I've been keeping my pills there so jack wouldn't see them I must have left them out. "Anyways he thought nothing of it at first cuz we thought they might have been Kate's old ones.. But he started keeping count and more and more keep missing."

"Shit so Madeline is pregnant" jack asked as he was in shock.

"I think so, that's what her and jack are fighting about" Sammy laughed as if it's some joke.

No one other then Skate knows I'm pregnant not even Madeline. So what could they possible be fighting about if she's not? As this was running though my mind I decided to text her. What if she actually is?

Kate: are you pregnant?

Madeline: No.. But you are, why the hell didn't  you tell me?

Kate: I haven't told anyone. So what did you tell jack about my pills?

Madeline: I told him I was and covered your ass. What's going on?

Kate: I'm so sorry, I just don't want to tell jack yet. Thank you so much.

Madeline: well tell him soon, Johnson is sitting here freaking out.

I put my phone back on the table once are food came, I can't believe she did that for me. I can already see the look on Johnson's face when she tells him she was just helping me out. But that's a big cover up, I never thought she would do anything like that for me. Dear lord my life is becoming a mess I need church. We finished up our food I didn't talk that much I let the boys have their own conversations while I sat and thought about everything going on in this world. Soon enough the boys were finished talking about God knows what and after an hour we decided to head home.

"I can't believe Madeline is pregnant"  jack said as we left the parking lot "their so stupid"

"Why are they stupid?" I asked hurt that he would say that.

"They see how much work Stella is, they should have been more carful"

"Things happen jack.. Things people can't control"

"I get that things happen, but seriously I feel bad for Johnson, we have so much going on, his life is about to be ruined"

"Was your life ruined when we had Stella?" I said Turing to face him upset.

"God no, she made my life better, but I was also 17 and had nothing to worry about other then homework. Now we have a job a serious one at that. We're writing new music, planning tours and so much more" he said as we pulled into the driveway "at least it's not you" he sighed as we got out of the car.

But that's the thing, it is me.