SPACES [Editing]

The Last

Don't worry about the title! This is not the last chapter!!!

Harry Styles

"Well it's not like I forced you into this marriage, did I? It's not like I planned the wedding, it just happened." As soon as I said that, I noticed the change in his expression and I regretted it right away.

He looked like he was stabbed by a dagger and I couldn't blame him.

I didn't mean what I said but it was too late, I've already hurt him.

He walked up the stairs and closed the door, trying to contain his sobs.

And then I felt my own pain. I hurt him, something I promised I wouldn't do.

I was supposed to protect him, love him and make him feel it, but now I did the complete opposite.

I should've been more careful with my words. He's been hurt before and I did it again.

He tore his walls down for me and now I just gave him the reason to build them back up.

I sat on the couch as I waited for him to calm down and talk to me again, but after almost two hours, he didn't come down.

What if he decided to leave me? What if his bags are packed, what if he's just waiting for the right time to leave? What if he decides to get a divorce?

My mind was filled with so many possibilities, ones I never want to happen.

I finally stood up and walked up the stairs. I entered our room and found him there, half naked, hugging one of my shirts. His pillow was still wet from all the crying. Even though his eyes were closed, I can tell that they're swollen.

I went to the bathroom to freshen up when I heard him mutter words that I didn't understand. I moved closer to him so I could hear what he's saying.

"I'm sorry..." He mumbled in his sleep. I wore the shirt that he slept with and slowly lied down on the space beside him. He turned around and hugged me, snuggling into my chest.

"Please don't leave me." He whispered again.

"I won't, Baby. I promise." I sighed. I was relieved he didn't want to leave me.

I played with his hair as I watched his breath rise and fall repeatedly. I do this a lot, watching him sleep. Something about it feels so calming.

He held me tight, not wanting to let go. I could feel him fall into another nightmare and I couldn't let that happen. He's had enough for one day, I'm not going to let his bad dreams make it so much worse.

I held him closer and rubbed his back as I placed a kiss on his temple. I felt him relax into me.

"Why did I shout at you?" I whispered to him. "I'm sorry."

"How could I hurt someone like you?" I held him so gently into my arms. I know he couldn't hear me but my feelings can't wait any longer.

"You know I didn't mean what I said earlier, right? You know I love you. I love you with everything I am, Louis. I don't regret ever marrying you, and for you I'd do it over and over and over again if I had to. And I'm sorry if you hate me right now. You probably want to run away but love, I'm not letting you go. You're precious and I can't let anyone else have you." I bent down and kissed his cheek.

"It's crazy how I want the world to see how beautiful you really are but I don't want anyone else to fall in love with you. I love you, my Louis. You alone. I'm planning on keeping it that way forever." I felt his heartbeat coincide with mine as I shut my eyes, holding my husband closer to me as I tried to fall asleep.