Part Of Me (Ereri / Riren)✔️

Announcement and Epiloque. (Spelling?)

HIYA

Author's Note: I will be deleting that horrible book I made called "New Reality." Hold your excitement! I will give you a little something something to show the ending, it probably won't bring you closure, but here ya go anyway. It is 7:44 and I have my billdip playlist jamming in my headphones and my root beer on my table. I am sweating because it is so hot in my room and I am wearing a hat, sweater, sweatpants and under my thick comforter. Also by the time you read this, I will have also deleted my other books I do not like and I am not proud of. I apologize if you liked them, and I hope you do like them, but I do not. Sorry! ;~; like; I am really sorry. So to try and make it up to you, I have an announcement. I will be making a brand new, cliche book. But it is so cliche it is unique. And my friends keep telling me, "If you have enough time to start one, you have enough time to finish one." Okay hold on...brb I am dying from sweating so hard. -shuffles to get comfy and cold- Okay this somewhat works not really. Back to what I was saying, I don't believe that saying. Lots of people start and never finish, and it's okay. I don't either. Heck I left Hanjis Experiment at a smut cliffhanger. I am a terrible writer, I know. But I give you this surprise!!!!!! Still working on the title so please comment any if you have any ideas x3:

Our Little Cliche.

"Godammit this is too cliche."

Two Boys. Eren and Levi; hardly have anything in common or anything alike in any way possible. Yet they find their way into each others lives that are both being slowly torn. thread by thread. Like almost as if it was torn from the pages from a cliche novel. They recreate their life, transforming it into something so unique and special to them that it is the only thing that keeps them tied down to their known reality. Their, Book of Cliches if you will.

"I guess it will be our little Cliche, then."

(Based off of a True Story, with true events...okay some I made up but like 90% real. the other 10% is like, smut or teeth rotting fluff).

now back to our epilogue;

Sorry for spelling errors;

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"We were lovers from the start, Levi. Right when we first looked at each other, we knew. The warmth bubbled up inside both of us and we knew from the very start that we were meant to be. Like a match made in heaven. Whether it be our necklaces matching that told us that or fate itself. Your very presence made my whole body spark up with delight. And I know I have told you this too many times to count. I love you, I hope you knew that. When Jason stepped between us, and scared me, ending my sparks of delight. I thought I would never be fixed again. Jason, Walter, Jean. All of them crushing me and I thought I had one too many things happen to me. I thought so many things at the time. I thought no one loved me. I thought you, Lee, or even Hanji, never loved me. I never brought it up as I let my endless darkening thoughts torture me into believe. I thought I would never be able to fly. But by the time you left me was when I had realized that

you are my wings."

"A bird cannot fly without wings. Like a fish can not simply live without water. They need water to survive. You are the breath in my lungs, the water, and you are my wings. And I was too sucked up into my own petty little world to realize that. And when we adopted Lee together, it was the best time of my life. The memories that we shared together meant the world to me. You had fixed me better than anyone ever could. And I could say I only love you, and how my heart only belongs to you but it doesn't. And you know that. And I know that. I love Lee and Armin, and Mikasa, and everyone. Kayana, Hanji. Heck even Erwin. But I love you. I love you more than the stars and the world and together we could've defeated the world. Just you and me against the world, fighting together as one. When we had gotten married, and when you proposed to me, it was like the day we had meet on that sidewalk. I wanted to fall on my knees in pure happiness and just hold on tight to you and to never let go."

"But you are gone now, and nothing will or can ever make you come back, right? You wouldn't leave me right? Right. Y....You would never do such a thing. Because a world without you is a world I couldn't nor would I ever would be able to survive. I wish we had more time to each other. We tried. Right? At least......

we tried."

"And I don't know why I am crying right now, maybe it's because all my feelings are bubbling back up to the surface. No matter how hard I try to repress them and hold back the demons they seem to break of my grasp and scream at the top of their lungs, begging to be free. I don't know how to explain it properly. I just try now, to live life with Lee and Hanji and Kanaya. Who are all there for me even after you left us. I don't know if i will ever see you again. And just thinking that makes me want to burst into tears, withering away like an old crummy rose, dried up and dead. I hope you are doing okay, wherever you are. Maybe you met a bareneck and fell in love. Even though it is impossible for that love to catch such a flame as ours did. But our flame slowly dimmed into a spark before poofing away from existence into something so small and so tiny I would never be able to see it. "

"The apartment is empty now, well, mostly empty. I had removed most of your stuff. Most things. Not all of them. I kept some of your sweatshirts, all of our wedding photos. The picture of us at the beach. Ya know, the one where you had such a warm and gentle smile on your face. You looked so peaceful in that photo. So at ease. I hope you are at ease wherever you are now. I wish I could see your face, your beautiful grey and blue eyes that mixed and swirled together to make the most terrific shade I have ever seen. Or your super soft and silky skin that was so smooth to the touch. Your soft raven black undercut hair that one time you let me cut. Remember those memories? I do. God, I remember them all in such a weird and vivid detailed way, I miss those lighter days, where everything was so happy. Remember? You probably wouldn't remember."

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"I let Lee sleep in my bed sometimes. He is so much older and so grown now, so he no longer needs to. But he does it because I feel so alone and cold, that I need someone I love there with me to fill up the space you left. The hole in my heart is still no repaired. Remember when you gave me that chocolate kiss? Is it weird I still have the foil wrapper? I like to think it is, but Lee and Hanji say it is normal. I want to just throw it out of the window and cry as hard I can, wanting to erase every single memory we shared together. But then I just want to hold it close and shut out the world, ignoring everyone and shutting out Lee and Hanji, just to sit in my thoughts."

"How did we get here? How did we end up here? I lived a decently normal life, in the cold. Because right about now I could really go for one of those cliche movies or books where the boy and the girl/boy fall in love at first sight. They date, they marry, they have kids. And drive off into the sunset. Happily Ever After. Well, where is my happily ever after? This is not closure, no where near it. No where close to when I perceived to be 'closure." In fact, I like to this of this moment as the highly opposite of closure. This isn't closing up all my questions, but making room for more questions to pour through as I am confused. Confused and lost in such a closure-less world. Why did you take away my warmth? But you are my warmth. So why did you take away one of the most important things to be and just leave me with the child both you and raised together alone. He still asks me where you are. And even by now I had expected him to get the pretty clear message and stop asking me but yet he still presses onward with his raging questions. I have to dodge them every single time he asks. One time he asked 5 times in less than a hour. It was weird, having to ignore that many questions. But I am sure you know what that's like, don't you? Because you kept me with so many ignored questions that still circle in my brain. Why?"

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"I am a selfish person. I ask for so much. I ask for you to never leave me and you are so selfish as to never tell me why you left me, as it was probably for your own good. You are selfish for choosing yourself over us. We are your family. And I am...or I was your husband. Lee, he misses you and one day I am going to have to tell him the truth."

"Please, Levi. my warmth.

"Don't make me say goodbye,"

I said to him, into the phone, my voice shaky before I listened closely.

"See you Later, Eren."

'Click.'

"Your call has ended."