I do, I need you. #wattys2016

He's Gone Insane.

The bombing lasted only a few more hours after that, but for safety we spent the night in the bunker. It was my first night sleeping with my fiancée and knowing he's mine forever. I saw a quick glance of Gale while I was admiring my ring. Sure it isn't much, but look where we are; it's the fact that Peeta did this that counts. Gale was sucked away  by the crowd before I could talk to him, but I also didn't make an effort to either. I just stayed with his family, mine, and Peeta. He'll be my family one day. I smile thinking about it and feel his hands around my waist. I smile kissing his temple and walking to the command room with Peeta and Prim. I've asked Prim to come so we can talk about what she told me last night. I expect to see everyone there, having some sort of meeting about the state of thirteen. But only Boggs is here and I realize I've never actually had to talk to him much. "Soldier Everdeen, Mellark, Primrose.  How many I help you today?" He stands politely.

"We want to explain a few things with you and ask you what you think.." I start. Prim sits down between Peeta and I.

She begins to retell the entire story she told me just last night. "And you say your forgot all this until now?" He asks suspiciously.

"It was traumatic, I guess I pushed it away in my mind." He nods as if he understands.

"Alright. So do you think if we handed you a map you could lead us to Finnick?"

"I don't-I'm not sure. I don't want to be involved in this war at all unless I have to be."

"Prim." He starts. "You know too much to not be involved in this war." She sadly nods and I take her small hand in mine.

"It's okay to be scared Prim, we will get through this together." 

"Yeah, we could have our soldiers go in with you in their earpiece directing them. But only if you think you can.." He explains.

"I think I can yes.. But we'll need a distraction."

"Don't worry about that. We have it covered." He looks over Peeta and slowly. "We have a new propo in the making.."

I laugh a little. "I haven't filmed anything."

"We didn't say you did, but we finished the footage of your trip to eleven."

"Oh." I nod. "Is there anything else you'd like to say Prim?"

"Just that I'm sorry for forgetting about the attack.."

"It's alright Prim." He comforts her.

"Okay.." She nods and we stand making our way to her room. We drop her off and I hold Peeta's hand tightly.

"I missed you an awful lot.." I grin into his shoulder as we walk.

"You've been with me." He notes. We return the warm smiles of all the random people who heard of our news. I nod to the occasional person who said 'thank you' to me and we keep walking.

I don't like all the extra attention. I'm not doing what I do for the fame or attention. I'm doing I because I believe it's right. And my goals from before are still the same now. I want to save my sister, and keep Peeta alive.

"I know, but I missed being alone with you." I smile.

"Oh have you?" He smirks to himself. I sigh happily and he looks at me weirdly. "What's wrong with you?" He chuckles.

"We feel like an actual couple teasing each other, being cute and romantic."

"It's a big news flash Katniss, but we'll never be a normal couple."

"True."

"I'm starving.." He mumbles.

"I want to go sleep.." I whine.

"You just slept for almost half a day.."

"Fine, let's go see if there's anything to eat."

"I'm sure Sae can whip us up something.." He smiles.

"You know..." I start. "Sae told me one time id never end up with Gale. I needed to be with someone sweeter..?"

He turns bright red and grins. "I'll have to thank her sometime."

"Why?" I ask as he holds the door open for me.

"Because she showed you the way."

I double over laughing, he lifts me carrying me to a seat. He just looks at me smiling widely, I continue to laugh into his lap. He sits back to watch me laugh. "How did I get so lucky?" He laughs.

"How did I get so lucky?" I reply putting emphasis on I. "Oh that's right, because your blind and weird and don't know what your getting yourself into."

"I know exactly what I'm getting myself into, and I love it. I'm also not blind, because all I see in front of me is a strong, confident, beautiful woman who knows what she wants."

I smile and kiss him hard. I push into his lap and wrap my arms around him. "I love you." I say not caring who's watching.

"I love you more..." We kiss again and suddenly everyone claps. I laugh into the kiss and put our hands up like we did in the tribute parade. Everyone stops and we stand to walk to Sae. She greets us happily and hugs us both.

"Hellow guysth." She says. Her teeth which are messed up now make it harder to understand her words. "How are yous?"

"Good, we just got engaged actually." Peeta brags.

"I knew you'd be smarth"  she pinches my cheek. "He's a good boy."

I smile at him proudly. "I know. I love him with all my heart." She clasps her hands and brings them to her face.

"Would you twoth lovebirs like somethin to eat?"

"Yes please Sae. How are you after the bombing?"

"Good." She replies. She brings us into the dark kitchen and sits us at a table. "I don't haveth the same stuff as twelve but it's just as goodth I supposed." She sits a bowl in front of us.

Sae used to be famous around twelve for her soups. The best one was spicy wild dog soup, it was good after being cold on a hunt all day.

"It's some tofu crap."

"What's that?" Peeta asks placing a cube of it into his mouth.

"Soy, and other beans. It's supposedth to be a substitute for meat."

"It's gross." He wrinkles his nose.

"I kinda like it." I shrug and he pouts. "Just eat it. It's your dinner." I ruffle his hair and he starts eating. We finish quickly and say goodbye to Sae.

He leads me to our room and I laugh at his dumb jokes the whole way there. He lays down on the bed and I walk into the bathroom to change. I take my hair out and try to wash my face of the day, it doesn't seem to work though.

I walk back into the room in one of  Peeta's shirts and loose fitting pants. "It's like your trying to become me or something." He jokes pulling me into the bed. My eyes search his face briefly before he connects our lips sharply and fast. His hands trace their way up to my hips and touch my bare skin sending electricity through me with each graze of the finger. His hands gradually find their way under my shirt, And into my stomach.

I can do this. Be brave, this is nothing.

No! It's not. I need to wait until I'm married, this is wrong. I break slightly. "Peeta slow down." I whisper into his neck.

"Alright." He kisses my lips retracting my hands. We break when there's a knock on the door. "Let me get it." I sprawl out on the bed. And listen to Peeta. "Ye- Oh hi. Yes you can come in." He opens the door wider and in walks Gale. I tug my shirt down so my stomach is covered.

"I think we should talk." His eyes find mine.

"Gale, it's late. Really late, can it wait. I was meaning to find you."

"No, no it's not about that."

"Then what is it about?" I ask.

"It's Finnick he's back and.."

"And what?" I jump from the bed.

"Something's wrong with him, I think he's gone insane.."