Chapter 49:
Erin's POV:
That day I saw him standing outside our house is the same day I last saw him. Nang magpasukan ay nagpalipat na ako ng school at pinutol ang koneksyon ko sa kahit na sino na makakapagpaalala sa akin sakanya.
Wala man kaming nasimulan ay may naganap na pagmo-move on sa akin. Hindi ko namalayan na mayroon na agad akong nabuong feelings para sakanya. Baka nung una pa nga, pero hindi ko na dapat isipin yun. Tapos na. Wala na siya. Parang bula. Kung dati ay bumabalik pa, ngayon ay wala na talaga. Wala akong natanggap na explanation o ano. Basta na lang natapos. Sabagay, ano nga naman ba ako sakanya?
Sa lahat ng school na lilipatan ay dito pa sa Sacred Heart. Sa dating school kung saan nanggaling si Revi. I didn't really cut myself in all the things that reminds me of him. He's still somehow part of my life. And I'm afraid I won't be able to recover from it for a long time.
I made a reputation for myself. Someone that is far from the real me. The Erin who's contented to settle for less, who's willing to take what other's can give even if it that means just a little of themselves. I closed my doors and shut people out of my life. I made myself unreachable. Someone who deserves every great things that life can offer. Someone who knows that she deserves to be happy. Someone who finally knows her value.
That's how I ended up. The thing between me and him which didn't occur to me that will affect me this much. But it did. It did left a deep wound inside my chest. Enough to change me.
Hera's POV:
I watched it with my own eyes. The people I've been with for almost half of my life, drifting apart. Yñigo and Percy ...
Erin's now gone. Cutting all the means of communication we can do to keep in touch with her. For what reason? I don't know. She just went ... missing.
Revi? Revi is still there but not when Yñigo and Kody are around. She's still there but she's far from the person she used to be. She's there but you know she's not the same.
Parang nagising na lang ako isang araw na lahat kami nagbago na. Meron nang Yñigo at Kody. Meron nang Percy at Revi. Parang biglang bumaligtad ang mundo.
Hindi mo na nga kami mapagsasama-sama sa iisang lugar. The only thing that didn't change is me and Edison.
I watched them all change into different persons. I thought at first kaya pang gawan ng paraan. But then again, pain can really change people. Naging mahirap para sa akin na makita ang lahat ng iyon. Nasaktan ako habang pinapanuod ko silang masaktan lahat.
I even confronted Kody for it. I ended what was left with our friendship that day. Because she didn't even feel sorry for what she had done. She said that she's only taking what should have been hers in the first place. Even if it means she'll ruin some other relationship.
Nakita ko din kung paano itrato ni Percy at Yñigo ang isa't isa. Para bang hindi sila naging magkaibigan ni minsan. Para bang hindi nila nakikita ang isa't isa. Para bang hindi sila naging parte ng buhay ng isa't isa.
Sa una, inilaban ko pa. Pero ganun siguro talaga kapag nasaktan ka. Akala mo maaagapan pa, pero huli na.
Edison's POV:
Sinubukan ko naman ayusin kaming tatlo. Miss ko na nung kami pa lang tatlo at si Hera lang ang babae samin. Miss ko na yung wala kaming problema kundi ang mag-isip ng kalokohan at mang-inis ng tao sa eskwelahan. Miss ko na yung simpleng pikunan sa basketball o laro sa pc games ang pinag-aawayan.
Kasi isang araw, nagising na lang ako na wala na. Bigla na lang nangyaring isang araw, watak watak na kami. Malayong malayo na dun sa magkakaibigan na parang magkakapatid na.
Malayo na sa mga tunay na kaibigan ko. Si Percy at Yñigo ... ni hindi ko na makilala ang isa sakanila pag tinitingnan ko sila.
Dahil lang sa kagaguhan ni Yñigo. Nawala na ang lahat. Nagalit ako dahil hindi niya ipinaliwanag sa amin. Hindi niya maipaliwanag ang dahilan kung bakit sinaktan niya si Revi. Bakit napunta siya kay Kody. Kaya walang nakaintindi sakanya. Sa huli, pinabayaan ko na lang. Kasi nagawa ko na ang lahat, kung hindi na talaga pwede. Hindi na.
Kung meron lang akong ipinagpapasalamat, yun ay ang pinatibay lalo ng mga nangyari ang relasyon namin ni Hera. Naging sandigan namin ang isa't isa at naging pruweba kami ng minsang masayang samahan.
May mga bagay lang sigurong hindi na maibabalik pa.
Revi's POV:
Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko nang tawagan ko si Percy. Kailangan ko ng masasandalan. Kailangan ko ng makakapitan. Kailangan ko siya.
"Hello?" I let myself cry as soon as he picked up the call.
"Pwede ko na bang kuhanin ang consolation prize?" I tried to joke but my voice broke in the middle of my sentence and I sobbed.
Hindi siya sumagot. Pero alam kong andun pa siya. Nakarinig ako ng buntong hininga sa kabilang linya.
"So, this is good bye then?" I don't know if he's pertaining to me and Yñigo. "Hintayin mo ko kukunin kita."
That same night, I cried it all out in Percy's arms. He never said anything and just stayed there, beside me. He never asked what happened and I thanked him secretly for not asking. I cried until my eyes felt like it's gonna fall off. I cried until nothing was left of me.
I'm in pain. I'm in need, need of healing. I'm in desperation. I'm shattered and all I could think about is to stop the pain.
"Help me get over it ... please." I cried as I clung to his arms tighter for support and he reached for my face as he leaned down and kissed me.
For a while it stopped the pain, my mind only focused to what was happening right in that moment. My whole world stopped spinning. His lips move expertly inside my mouth. I'm getting drawn by his kisses and it sends electricity all through out my body. And I let the world fell apart as he kissed me that night. In that moment nothing else matters. Just him and his lips.
Not the pain. Not the rejection. Not the wound.
