CHROMIA SERIES

The Last Male Carrier 10

Goodbyes

Hendrix

I woke up suffering from the painful throbbing of my head. My hands immediately moved on my temples giving it a gentle massage. I cracked an eye only to find myself inside the kitchen, sitting on a stool with empty bottles of beer strewn all over the area. I groaned when the aching intensified. I forcefully shut my eyes while I tried to gather all the episodes that happened last night. Out of the blue, a tear fell down on my cheek followed by another then another until I was sobbing. I remembered how I delved for information about where my Flynn had gone. I remembered how I searched around the whole island looking for him, shouting his name in all directions, begging for him to come back.

It has been a month, a whole month of grief since he went missing. No traces of him even a single strand of his hair. It was that day I had set a romantic dinner for him, preparing myself to confess my feelings of love to the only person who had set my heart pulsating erratically with just a smile and my body submerging into heat with just one touch. I was gladly waiting for him under the colossal tree of Chromia but he didn't come. He never showed. As soon as there was no Flynn on sight, I went back to the mansion to check what had happened but it was Lady Ada who guaranteed that she had aided Flynn near the place before she left, just like what I had instructed her to do. I turned into panic mode on that moment I realized that there was something wrong. Right away, I ordered my men to go search the entire island and look for Flynn. We spent the whole night, exploring the woods but unfortunately we never found him. I had to stop myself that time on putting the blame to anyone because it was no one's fault and it wouldn't somewhat help but would only make the scenario worse. I even went down the villages next morning asking each household if they caught a glimpse of a sixteen year old boy with different eye colors but to my disappointment, they all shook their heads in response. It didn't stop me though, I continued to roam around the island searching for him every day and every night from sunrise to sunset but I always ended up with nothing. I must say that it was the most devastating moment of my life. Looking for someone you love even though you don't know where he had been.

Up till now, it breaks my heart not seeing him around the mansion. It crushes my heart even more not knowing where he was. Sleeping became a hard part for me. As a matter of fact I didn't have the willpower to sleep on our room. I just couldn't find the comfort of sleeping without him next to mine, without him enclosed into my arms. I would rather sleep on the couch or on the floor than the soothing bed for the reason that Flynn might not be sleeping well also.

I clenched my fist and the chucked the bottle of beer next to mine on the nearest wall. It shattered into pieces just like how my heart had become for the past month and even more knowing the possibility that Flynn wouldn't come back anymore. I lowered my head and continued to shed tears, not even bothering if someone would see me on my weakest state. Why would I be ashamed? Flynn is my weakness. He's my source of strength. Without him I'm nothing.

"I m-miss you baby." I whispered in trembling lips, trying myself to stop producing more waterworks but failed. "I-I miss you so much and it hurts. P-please come back to me."

"Hendrix?" I quickly wiped away the tears and composed myself before I gazed upon Lady Ada whose standing on the frame door of the kitchen. I could see the look of sympathy she was giving to me. For some reason, it didn't suit me well. I don't know why but I immediately looked away not wanting to see her. Maybe because I always felt mortified every time I remembered how much I wanted to put the blame on her. It was just then that I was engulfed into a tight embrace my dam broke again. I turned around and buried my face on her shoulder and from there I cried hoping that after this the pain would come to an end.

"Everything's going to be alright, Hendrix. We'll going to find him." She whispered as she stroked the back of my hair.

"I don't know what to do a-anymore, Ada. I don't want to lose him, I-I can't-" I choked.