First Semester

Quinton 16

I was super jealous of Jeremy's new car (not really) and I've never been so nervous being in a car with one of my friends until now, Jeremy had a lead foot, he thought yellow lights meant speed up and stop signs were just for decorations...... I'm not the religious type but I'm pretty sure I pray to every God I could think of to let us get to Detroit safely. Thankfully is wasn't a long drive once we got to Detroit we got to the hotel Julian was staying at for the weekend and Jeremy went to call his dad or something. As walked to Julian's room I started thinking about the conversation we had the other night, Julian told me that he really liked me and that he wanted a relationship but he was scared because he was out...... I knocked on the door to his room and when it opened some muscular dark skinned dude was standing there eyeing me lustfully. Before I could say anything Julian pushed the dude to the side and pulled me inside the room quickly.

"Damn Julian this you?" The dark skinned dude asked pointing at me.

"Yeah something like that now give us some space." Julian said not taking his eyes off of me. The dude looked at me one more time before walking out leaving me with Julian. "I'm sorry about my cousin he's a creep, you ready for the show tonight?" He asked looking in my eyes.

"Of course why do you think I drove here? Plus I wanted to finish the conversation we had the other night." I said quietly.

"We talked about a lot but I know what you're referring to and my answer is still the same; I like you and I like talking to you. I just need you to 100% sure you can deal with dating a dude like me, there are going to be times when you see me around campus and I'm not going to be able to talk to you and there are going to be times that you see me with chicks, pretending to be interested in them and there will be times when I won't be able to answer your calls or respond to your text. Can you handle that?" Julian asked rubbing my chin, I traced my finger across the branded omega symbol on his chest.

"I'm not sure. I like you too but I've spent half my life hiding who I was and I don't want to force you to come out the way I was......... can I have a few hours to think about it?" I asked and Julian nodded.

"I understand, me and my cousin got a lot of stuff to do before the show tonight so there's a chance I won't get to see you until it's over but I'll text all day." Julian said kissing me. I walked out the room with more questions than answers, was I really the type of person who could be in a secret relationship? I got outside and found Jeremy blasting Trey Songz, I shook my head and laughed getting in the passenger seat.

"So I was thinking in a couple weeks I wanted to drive to Columbus for the weekend, you wanna ride with me?" Jeremy asked turning the radio down. I hadn't been home in few months and I kinda missed my mom so what the hell.

"Yeah just let me know when you're trying to go." I said. "Let's go to the mall I want a new outfit to wear out tonight."

We got to the mall and grabbing a few things me and Jeremy sat in the food court talking when Giovanni called, I really admired the way Jeremy lit up whenever he spoke to Giovanni after all the hell he told me he'd been through with Darius he deserved some happiness.

"Gio wants to know if you're coming over for dinner tomorrow?" Jeremy asked quietly.

"Hell to the no....... I don't think I can be around Carlos bitch ass he better be glad I'm not trying to get kicked outta school or I would've been knocked his ass out." I said still pissed that his punk ass kissed me, I heard Giovanni laughing over the phone and Jeremy smirked.

"Okay, I'll call you later........." Jeremy said quietly and I felt there was something else he wanted to say but didn't.

"When are you going to let that boy get some ass?" I asked bluntly and Jeremy rolled his eyes.

"When he's ready, I think he was ready last night but Darius fucked up the mood for both of us." Jeremy said pissed.

"You know what I think, we should drive to East Lansing jump his ass and drive back to Ann Arbor before he even knows what happened. If there's one thing I can't stand it's a jealous ex." I said heated.

"I'm not even going to give him the satisfaction. I just hope he realizes that I'm over him, he just doesn't know how close he was to getting his ass beat by Gio last night." Jeremy said and I was lowkey salty I missed that.

"Are you going to read this?" I asked pulling the letter out my pocket.

"When did you get that?" Jeremy asked confused.

"When you grabbed your bag I picked it up. What can I say I'm nosy....." I said and Jeremy shrugged. "Fine I'll read it." I said opening the envelope and started reading the letter out loud:

Jeremy,

     Before I pour out my entire heart and soul out into this letter, I want to let you know that you are the love of my life and what I did to you was beyond fucked up...... I guess the first thing I can say is that I was wrong; I was wrong for even coming to you with the whole idea of a threesome, I was wrong for how I treated you afterwards..............

And on and on it went. Darius didn't hold anything back and when I was done, I handed the letter to Jeremy and waited to see what he's do. After reading it a few times he ripped the letter up into a bunch of little pieces.

"Let's go, I'm trying to get a nap in before this show tonight." Jeremy said throwing the ripped up letter in the trash.

"That's it? You don't wanna talk about the letter from Darius?" I asked looking at him.

"Nah, he was the one who was stupid enough to let me go..... I'm just being smart enough to know not to let him back in. Plus the man I'm talking to now is too good of a guy for me to be worrying about my ex, I would never do that to Gio." Jeremy said and I agreed with his logic.

That night we showed up to the club and Jeremy was super pissed that I told him that he couldn't bring his phone inside, he could go a few hours without talking to him besides this was going to be totally worth it. We walked inside and I was in love, a bunch of sexy ass dudes every shade of brown walked around in damn near nothing.

"Please tell me you didn't bring me to a strip club." Jeremy asked rolling his eyes.

"Quit being so uptight, this isn't a strip club per sé. It's more like a secret group of strippers that perform once a month, not too many people know about it because most of the dancers are on the downlow. Some of the people in the audience are business men, lawyers, doctors, judges, athletes..... it's completely secret." I said.

"Then how do you know about it?" Jeremy asked and I just winked, I couldn't be giving away all my secrets. We found a table close to the stage just as the show started, honestly even though every dude that took the stage was a 10 I had eyes for only one. When Julian aka Omega took the stage I was entranced the way he moved had me just imagining how good he was in bed. After he was done he came over to our table and I had to use all my restraint not to fuck him right there.

"Ayy see if you can convince your friend to go back to campus tonight, my cousin is bringing someone back to the room and I'm trying to spend some time with you." Julian whispered in my ear.

"And how am I going to get home?" I asked looking at him.

"You can ride back with me tomorrow night, I just wanna chill with you without a lot of people around." He said rubbing my chin. "How about this, we go back to your hotel and I give you a private show?" Julian said and I started laughing. I looked at Jeremy who just shrugged, I swear that was his reaction to everything.

"Okay....... but don't get any funny ideas. We're just going to chill." I said feeling my heart racing in my chest. I didn't know what me and Julian were doing, whether we would end up together or not, but I did know I really liked him and I wanted to give this a chance.............................