First Semester

Jayden 17

'There is a thin line that separates laughter and pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt.' And despite the fact that I was always smiling and laughing there was a time when on the inside there was nothing but a never ending pit of sorrow........ honestly if it hadn't been for Giovanni and Carlos I don't think I could've made it as far as I have. They were the only bright spots left in my life, my best friends, my brothers.......... I guess you could say my troubles started after my punk ass sperm donor left before my freshmen year, the only reason I can think of for him leaving is that he couldn't take his oldest son being gay and his youngest in and out of the hospital all the time and when Jamal died........ his bitch ass didn't even have the decency to show up to his own son's funeral. After that things started to get back on track all things considering until the day I got called into the principle's office and they told me there had been an accident and my mom was dead. I wanted to die... there was no other way to put it, my dad was in the wind, my brother was gone and now my mom; if it hadn't been for Gio, Papi and my grandparents I would've succeeded. They pulled me from the brink of oblivion..........

"JAYDEN! Wake your punk ass up." Papi yelled barging into my room and jumping on top of me, while Gio sat at the foot of my bed.

"I wasn't sleep bitch...... what the fuck do y'all want?" I asked laughing.

"I need you to take me to the store so I can get stuff for dinner and before you say something smart I already asked Gio and he's about to go meet with Jeremy so get out of bed and come on." Papi said smacking my ass and walking out. I started to get up but noticed Gio still sitting there looking at me... or rather past me.

"You good Jay?" He asked and I was confused as to what he was talking about. "Jayden your pillow is soaking wet......... so that tells me you were either A) crying in your sleep again or B) Slobbering which would be nasty as fuck, so what's up?" Gio asked.

"I was dreaming about Jamal and my mom again........ it's been five years and I can still picture his smile and the smell of her perfume as if it was years day. But I'm good, I didn't even realize I had been crying." I said smirking.

"Aight bro just know if you wanna talk me and Papi are here." Gio said standing up. "And before I forget, tell Papi not to try planning a surprise party for my birthday because I'll fuck him up." Gio said smirking before walking out my room, damn his ass didn't miss anything.

"Fuck Gio's buff ass we're throwing that nigga a party whether he wants one or not." Papi said as we drove to the store, I just shook my head and laughed.

"Papi you and I both know good and well that those parties are never for Gio, hell we have more fun than he does. But I'm not going to stop you because you and your family always throw the best parties, remember your cousins quinceañera?" I asked laughing.

"Bruh...... I still have nightmares about that bullshyt. Let's see there were at least five fights, my little bro Angelo still can't look at tequila without getting sick, they almost burned my uncles house down and I'm pretty sure they're still looking for the donkey they lost." Papi said shaking his head.

"I'm still trying to figure out why they even had a donkey there in the first place." I said wiping the tears for my eyes.

"I don't even know but my family is crazy as fuck....... yo I just wanted to say my bad about that shyt I said about your dad, that was fucked up." Papi said quietly.

"You can say whatever you want about that nigga, it doesn't effect me in the slightest. I told y'all once I get famous he's going to come crawling back." I said seriously, Papi didn't say anything for the longest time.

"Jayden I just want you to know that....... I'm probably going to get famous before you and Gio." Papi said laughing.

"YOU PLAY SOCCER! NOBODY WATCHES SOCCER!" I said laughing at him.

"Yeah except the 3.5 billion people across the world. That's literally half the population on Earth but we'll make a bet whoever gets famous first, the other person has to buy them any car of their choice. Deal?" Papi said sticking his hand out, I grabbed his hand and smirked if things worked out the way I hoped then I would win the bet easily.

We walked around Walmart grabbing a bunch of stuff for dinner when I noticed some walking with skin tight leggings and a fat ass that I recognized anywhere. I walked up behind the person and pressed my dick against her ass, then kissed her neck. Taylor was my boo, how can I describe her well first I can say the obvious, Taylor was born a male but was quick to cuss someone out if they ever brought that up. In body she was still a male but in soul she was all female, I actually met her early last year when we were walking around campus after failing to sneak into college parties. She was a sophomore and wasn't trying to get into a relationship with a freshmen, but that never stopped us from fucking all over campus.

"Now this is either Jayden or someone is about to get pepper sprayed, tazed and the stabbed." Taylor said grabbing my grabbing my dick and stroking it through my sweats. "This is definitely Jayden." She said turning around and kissing me.

"Why didn't you call me last night, you know I was at home missing you like crazy." I said smiling charmingly.

"Boy please I was out with my girls, the better question is if you were missing me as bad as you say why didn't you call me?" She countered and I smiled.

"Aight you got me there, now here's a real question when are you going to stop playing and let me take you out on a real date? Don't get me wrong I love the time we spend together, the sex is explosive but I'm really trying to get with you."

"Jayden you're like what 18? I know what I was like at that age sex was at the forefront of my mind and I just feel like you aren't ready for a serious relationship yet." Taylor said looking in my eyes. I stood there slightly hurt and she could tell. "Look meet me in the family bathroom in five minutes." She said kissing me before walking away quickly then Papi walked up with a scowl on his face.

"Jayden as your best friend I think it's only right for me to tell you that you need to move on, I know you think you're in love and everything but Taylor is just going to keep stringing you along. There are too many fish in the sea for you to be stuck on just one bruh." Papi said seriously.

"How is she stringing me along? She doesn't think I'm ready for a relationship." I said.

"Who are you talking to? I've known you forever and Jayden, you more than ready for a serious relationship and if she's got you believing that you're not is exactly what I mean by her stringing you along.

"Yeah I hear you, look grab the rest of the stuff and I'll meet you at the checkout lane." I said patting him on the shoulder. I walked to the back of the store and into the family bathroom discreetly to find Taylor leaning against the wall waiting for me, I locked the door and before I knew it my dick was halfway down her throat. Within three minutes I was using my shirt to muffle the sounds of my moans as I busted, while I recovered Taylor got herself together then walked over and kissed me.

"That's just a taste of what you'll be getting after dinner." She said kissing me again. I couldn't speak, my brain was still trying to process what had just happened. I met up with Papi outside and he just shook his head, without words he knew exactly what had just transpired.

"Man I can't even fault you, I've done it any so many crazy places." He said dapping me up. "So we got three weeks to plan this party and......." As Papi continued to talk I let my stray to Taylor, if everything worked out the way I had planned then in about three years I'd be out of school and making a lot of money and I wanted..... no I needed her by my side just as much if not more than I needed Gio and Papi because I knew in my heart what I couldn't say out loud. Taylor was the love of my life and I couldn't see myself with anyone but her...........................................