First Semester

Quinton 30

I wanted Carlos to kiss me and I felt bad about it for many different reasons the most important being... Julian, I know we weren't in a relationship or anything but I still feel like if I had kissed Carlos I would be cheating on him. Then there was the fact that I didn't want to complicate things with Carlos, despite our constant arguing we were friends..... he told my things I needed to hear and in his on twisted way 99% of the stuff he told me was right. Finally the most glaring issue was the fact that since I've known Carlos I've seen him with at least ten different dudes (and those were the ones I knew about), Carlos proudly claims himself to be 'community dick' and he was a player, definitely not the type to settled down with just one person hell, his relationship with Drew lasted about a week before he got bored and moved on. I sat in the car waiting for him to walk outside realizing we'd probably miss our movie but that was fine with me being around Carlos was dangerous and the last thing I wanted was to get caught up in his spell.

"Yo my bad about trying to kiss you....... whenever I get in a fight, my hormones start going crazy and I get all messed up, wanting to fuck everything in sight." Carlos said quietly.

"It's.... it's fine no harm, no foul we didn't kiss so there's nothing to discuss. So umm..... do you wanna still go to the movies or just say forget it?' I asked and he sat there quietly for a second.

"I don't care it's up to you......." He said and I figured it would be best to just go back home. He got back to Carlos's house and sat there quietly but I could tell he had a lot on his mind. "So tomorrow we can study for that test you got coming up we can just meet up over here or at your dorm." Carlos said looking out the window.

"Umm yeah we can meet at my dorm........ I'll text you whenever I'm free." I said looking at him trying to figure out what he was thinking. "Carlos are you sure that everything is cool? I don't want this to mess things up between us." I said and he smirked.

"Nah I'm good, trust me...... I'm just thinking about who I should call. I'm horny as fuck and some head would be just what I need, honestly I'm almost at the point where I don't care who I get it from." Carlos said and I felt a pang of jealousy. "But yeah I'll hit you up tomorrow, peace out homie." He said getting out the car and walking quickly into the house. Once Carlos was in the house I quickly texted Jeremy because I really needed to talk to him.

ME: R U STILL OVER GIO'S

JERMEY: Nah I'm at the dorm Y wassup?

I didn't bother replying, I sped all the way over to Jeremy's and quickly raced up to his room, I knew he would help me figure out what was going on. I knocked on the door and Matt opened it wearing nothing but some shorts and I almost forgot why I came over here...... I swear I wished he was gay, but I wasn't one of those dudes who got off on turning out straight dudes. I saw Jeremy sitting on his bed going over some notes.

"Damn you got here quick, I thought y'all were going to the movies?" Jeremy said and I rolled my eyes. "Damn that bad?"

"No I'll tell you in a second, I'm still trying to process what happened....... but I figured you and Gio would somewhere wrapped around each other." I asked smirking.

"Why does everyone assume that all me and Gio do is have sex? We do like to do other stuff like actually chill..... now what happened with you and Papi?" Jeremy asked and I glanced at Matt who had turned on his game. "Don't worry about him, he's not paying attention to us." Jeremy said and Matt flipped him off. So I told Jeremy everything from the flat tire, to the fight, to the almost kiss and I thought he'd be surprised but he looked like he was expecting this.....

"It's obvious that Papi like's you, maybe you should stop playing and get with that nigga..... or at least let him smash a few times." Matt said from his bed not even glancing up from the screen.