Timing
- a particular point or period of time when something happens.
In all things, be it in love, career, academics, sports, name it. It is usually timing that makes all the difference. Yeah hard work pays off and all that but it's really a...
We all stood up from the table and gathered sa may door palabas. We were all saying goodbye to one another. May huling hirit pa tong si Tita nanaman.
"Hindi ka na pwede umabsent anak ha? Nagpakita ka na ulit, wala nang bawian."
"Opo, promise po." Katabi ni Tita si Richard kasi nakakapit siya sa braso niya.
Kinatuwa naman ng parents namin ng biglang lumapit sakin si Richard at nagbeso.
Hindi halata na sobrang nagulat ako pero sobrang nagulat ako.
Nagbeso kami. Akala ko immune nako sa amoy niya since buong night ko naman siya katabi. Addict na ata ako.
"Ingat." That's all he said. I was about to reply until his mom couldn't resist and hugged us both. This has been the closest I have been to Richard since.
"Hay kayong dalawang mga bata kayo. Maaayos niyo rin yan." Tita whispered. It was as if her voice cracked too. It took everything in me not to tear up. She let us go. Another round of goodbyes until my parents and I were finally out the door.
In the car, I was just quiet. My mom and dad were still on a high. They definitely enjoyed that more than I did. But I honestly did enjoy it but all I got from that dinner is how much I miss Richard. Three years? Nope, still not over him. How to move on po?
I look at where he touched my arm earlier, I could still feel his warmth. Then I was just looking out the window on the drive home, when my mom asked me, "Did you enjoy dinner?"
In all fairness despite the awkwardness, "Yeah, I did." I smile.
Right away, my dad goes, "Namiss mo no?!"
I know where he was getting at, so sasakyan ko na lang 'to, kala naman niya, "Oo naman, namiss ko talaga."
"I meant yung family dinner ha!" Hay dad, you are too predictable. Both my parents laughed. I was laughing with them while shaking my head.
What a day. I give myself a pat in the back, I think I did well today, considering all that was thrown at me, I handled it well. In the darkness, my phone lit up.
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Richard. His name popped up. I was speechless. This is the first time he has messaged me in three years. Same pa rin pala number niya.
I found myself just staring at my phone and let the moment sink in. Years before, this was such a normal occurrence that it didn't have such an effect on me. Then I realized I have been staring at this for far too long.
Shit. Anong irereply ko? Smiley face or no smiley face? Should I even reply at all? Of course I should. Think, Menggay, think...
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And there!
I will not reply anymore. Ang gaga ko, sarap sabunutan. Tinitigan ko lang yung exchange namin, kinilig ako when he replied again. I was all giddy over a text message, jusko tumiteenager si Maine. It took everything in me not to message him again and again about how much I missed him and how much I want to have him back.
Chard, andito na ulit Menggay mo o. Halika na dito, bati na tayo.
With one last look at our conversation, the tears came as I found myself crying again.
