MY JERK EX-HUSBAND

10.2

Brix's POV

I was so desperate that time without realizing that I already fall inlove with her..

na mahal ko nalang pala si Nicole dahil yun ang pinaniwalaan ko the whole year, mahal ko nalang pala si Nicole dahil dun ko pinaikot ang mundo ko, mahal ko nalang pala yung kaisipan kung paano ko tatapusin yung planong nasimulan ko na..

mahal ko nalang si Nicole sa isip ko.. but not in my heart anymore..

sumama ako sa kanya sa America, our company is already stable that time at nakabangon na ang pamilya ko kaya wala na kong kailangang problemahin sa pag-alis ko..

except the unborn child Harrah is carrying..

I am the one who handled our company branch in the US while Nicole continued her modelling,

we're always together but most of the time I'm thinking about Harrah, I can't get her out of my mind,

how was her?? is she fine?? did she already gave birth to our child?? is it a boy or a girl?? when could be his or her birthday??

but I was still so indenial, I continuously denying to myself that I cared for her.. that I cared for our baby..

iniisip kong nakokonsenya lang siguro ako, sinaktan at pinahirapan ko siya tapos binuntis ko pa at hindi pinanagutan samantalang ako masaya na,

pinilit kong isipin yun, pinilit kong kumbinsihin yung sarili ko na eto, masaya na ko, okay na ko at tama ang pinili ko, tama ang ginawa kong pag-iwan sa kanila para kay Nicole, tama ang desisyon ko,

until one day after two years of thinking and denying, I found myself sitting at my office and talking to a private investigator while looking at Harrah's photos with a cute little boy-- our son,

yeah, I was that asshole not to realize my feelings early, I was that asshole not to realize that I'm already missing her,

dalawang taon pa ang pinalipas ko bago aminin sa sarili kong mahalaga siya saken, na mahalaga sila ng anak ko,

I thought I'm already happy and contented with Nicole, yun pala pinipilit ko lang ang sarili ko na paniwalaan yun because I don't want to regret things that I've done,

I don't want to blame myself for those wrong decisions I've made,

but who to blame??

ako lang ang may kasalanan ng lahat, me alone, masyado kasi akong ma-pride..

umuwi agad ako ng Pilipinas para makita sila, nalaman kong umalis na siya sa dati naming bahay at wala nang nakatira dun kaya naghanap agad ako ng pwedeng maging caretaker to maintain the house and then I found Manang Rose, she's trustworthy that's why I hired her,

pinuntahan ko yung address nila Harrah na binigay ng private investigator, wala na daw kasi yung dati nilang mansyon dahil naibenta na nung bumagsak ang company nila na binili ni Dad para isalba,

that time nailipat na ni Dad saken lahat ng ari-arian niya so I decided na ipangalan ulit kay Harrah yung dati nilang company,

I was about to give it to her but I don't think she'll accept it, baka sabihin lang niya pampalubag loob,

nung makita ko siya at si Skyler, I didn't expect na maluluha ako,

I can't walk towards her because of overflowing shame I felt, hiyang-hiya ako sa kanya at sa anak namin,

angkapal naman ng mukha kong magpakita ngayon na okay na siya, na nakikita ko na ulit yung mga ngiti niyang totoo, na masaya na siya sa buhay niya and she doesn't need me anymore,

is she.. is she still inlove with me??

I don't want to ruin her life again, duwag na kung duwag pero natakot akong lapitan siya..

I don't deserve her, she already moved on bakit pa ko biglang susulpot, right??

so I just content myself watching them from afar, 5 months akong nag-stay dito sa Pilipinas, araw-araw akong nasa labas ng bahay nila at pinapanuod lang sila mula sa malayo,

wala siyang trabaho at isang katulong lang sa bahay ang kasama niya, good thing pinapadalhan siya ng parents at mga kapatid niya na nasa America,

alam kong yun lang ang inaasahan niya so I immediately call my secretary and tell her to give Harrah's brothers in US a job para magkaroon sila ng mas maganda at malaking sweldo,

kinausap ko din yung landlady nung apartment na tinitirhan niya and offer her a million to buy the house,

pinahawak ko sa iba yung apartment para hindi niya malaman na ako na ang may-ari nun at binabaan ko yung renta,

that's the least and only way I can do for them..

bumalik ako sa US to finished all my stuffs there so that I can stay in the Philippines for good,

and also to talk to Nicole and to end our relationship, I don't want to be unfair but I have no choice,

mas magiging unfair ako kung hahayaan kong matuloy ang relationship namin ng siya nalang ang nagmamahal,

I know I really am a selfish jerk and I admit it..

I thought everything will be fine because finally, naging honest na ko sa sarili ko, natanggap ko nang mahal ko si Harrah at may kasalanan ako,

but fate didn't gave me a chance and things didn't work on what I want it to be..