MY JERK EX-HUSBAND

CHAPTER 10.1

Brix's POV

tumigil na siya sa pagpiglas kaya niyakap ko pa siya ng mas mahigpit, I hug her more as tight as I could, angtagal kong hinintay to,

7 years of longing for her..

I was about to let go nung maramdaman kong bumigat siya kaya tinignan ko yung mukha niyang nakasubsob sa dibdib ko,

"Harrah??" hinawakan ko siya sa pisngi but she didn't dare open her eyes, "Harrah?? Harrah!!"

nawalan siya ng malay, inalalayan ko muna siya sa bewang bago binuhat at nagmamadaling dinala sa guest room sa first floor,

hindi ko siya pwedeng dalhin sa kwarto nila, napadaan ako dun kanina at tulog na ang anak namin,

dahan-dahan ko siyang inihiga sa kama, napahilamos ako sa mukha ko, hindi dapat ako lumapit sa kanya kanina eh, hindi ko dapat siya pinilit na kausapin ako, I know she's scared of me,

nilabas ko yung cellphone ko sa bulsa para tawagan at papuntahin dito si Kyra, yung pinsan kong doctor,

nung sinabi niyang papunta na siya, pinatay ko na yung cellphone at umupo sa gilid ng kama katabi ni Harrah,

I stared at her face for a minute, angdami nang nagbago sa kanya, but I know deep inside my heart.. kahit na ano pang pagbabago niya na alam kong ako ang dahilan at ako ang may kagagawan, I know she's still that girl I used to loved 7 years ago..

kung sana maaga ko lang yun na-realize, wala sana kami sa ganitong sitwasyon ngayon,

napansin ko yung mga luha sa pisngi niya na kahit nakapikit siya patuloy pa rin sa paglabas,

I tried to wipe her tears away using my hand but still no use, tumingala ako at pumikit ng mariin, trying to hold back my own tears pero may kumawala pa rin,

why am I crying?? I know I don't have the rights but I can't help it,

regrets.. yeah..

8 years ago, I was force by my father to marry her,

I already know her that time ofcourse, she's Harrah De Vera-- my certified stalker, I know that she's been stalking me since high school and its creeping me out that's why I don't like her, ayoko sa mga babaeng unang nagpapakita ng motibo at unang gumagawa ng moves, masyado siyang papansin para saken kaya hindi ko siya pinapansin,

then one week before the wedding nalaman ko nalang that I need to marry her, that the wedding was already settled, naka-arrange na lahat,

I refused but my parents beg for me to stay, that I am their only hope, pabagsak na ang company namin at tutulungan lang kami ng Dad niya kung pakakasalan ko siya,

what do you expect me to think??

she planned everything, she's that obsessed to me na nagawa niya pang gamitin yung sitwasyon namin para lang makuha ako,

masama nang anak kung masama pero pinili ko si Nicole, we're about to runaway pero nahuli ako nila Dad, magtatanan na dapat kami at magpapakalayo-layo kung hindi lang nila ako kinulong nung gabing yun,

then the next day nalaman ko nalang na wala na si Nicole, she flew all the way to America para lumayo saken dahil akala niya hindi ko siya sinipot, she thought that I chose Harrah over her, she's really hurt I guess and it hurts me more knowing that I am the reason,

I don't know where or how can I find her that's why I was forced to continue the wedding against my will,

since our first day, pinangako ko na sa sarili kong ako na mismo ang gagawa ng paraan para siya na mismo ang tumalikod at makipag-divorce saken, in that way magiging malaya na ulit akong hanapin at balikan si Nicole,

ginawa ko ang lahat, I hurt her physically and emotionally, nagulat pa nga ako nung may mangyari samin that it was her first, I was her first, I really thought that she's a slut, a flirt and a desperate bitch, I didn't expect that she's pure,

but still that thing didn't change my mind, inalis ko yung kaunting guilt na nararamdaman ko, I'll still going to pursue my plans, tatapusin ko ang sinimulan ko,

months had passed pero hindi pa rin siya sumuko saken, naiirita na ko, pakiramdam ko habang tumatagal mas lalong lumalabo yung chance na magkabalikan pa kami ni Nicole,

paano kung habang gumagawa ako ng paraan para iwan ako ni Harrah makakilala siya ng iba?? magmahal siya ng iba?? I knew to myself that I can't bear that to happen, that I can't let that happen,

mas naging harsh ako kay Harrah to the point na ilang beses na siyang naospital dahil saken, na almost everyday may sugat at pasa siya sa katawan, na almost every night pagod siya dahil pinipilit ko siyang makipag-s*x saken, na kahit wala siyang kasalanan sinasaktan ko siya,

what should I do??

I just want her to realize how idiot she is na ako ang minahal niya, how pathetic of her na ginusto niya akong pakasalan,

I just want her to know that I can't love her and will never be,

I really love Nicole, I used to be sure to myself na siya lang ang mahal at mamahalin ko, that she's the only girl whom I want to spend the rest of my life with,

kaya nung bumalik siya, I didn't waste the chance, kinausap ko agad siya and I explained everything to her, na siya talaga ang pinili ko and no matter what siya at siya lang ang pipiliin ko,

she gave me a chance, one week lang daw ang itatagal niya dito sa Pilipinas kaya gumawa agad ako ng paraan para hiwalayan si Harrah,

I was so desperate that time na tinalikuran ko pa rin siya despite of knowing na magkakaanak na kami,

I was so desperate that time without realizing that I already fall inlove with her..