Dear Diary [h.s. au]

Chapter One.

(A/N: When you finish reading this chapter please take a look at my small note in the end, it's important for continuing this story. Enjoy your reading .xx)

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Dear Diary, 

I’m tired of this. I can’t do this anymore. I wanna leave this god damn world right now.

My mum and I moved to a new neighborhood a few weeks ago. I hate it here. All I can see is houses and trees and parks. The house next to us is empty I guess. I never saw anyone actually there. My room window leads me to a window of the house next door. It has curtains but no one is ever there.

There’s no one here I know of, and there’s only little kids. No one of my age. Even though I would push them away like I did to everyone else.

I haven’t heard from my dad in days. He’s away in some shit with work. I think it’s a new building they’re making on the other side of the country I’m not sure, I never pay attention to what he says.

First day of school is tomorrow and I am terrified. I know people will bully me and mock me for my clothes and my body.

On my former school I was bullied for not having expensive clothes and phone. Brands matter a lot these days apparently. Someone even broke my phone in the middle of a class just because they felt like it. And I had to lie to my mum saying it just fell down the stairs while I was pulling out some boxes for the moving. She believed me and thank god. If she didn’t I would get beaten up on the next day.

I am not really open to people. I don’t really think I like people.

I mean, yes I had friends, yes I fancied a guy or two but I was always bullied for it. And my friends eventually left me because I wasn’t good enough. I was never good enough for anyone.

I never had an actual boyfriend. Just a fling or two but nothing more. And why ? Because they never liked me enough. I was just a toy in their hands. To use and to throw away when they got bored.

Will someone ever love me ? Of course not.

My life is a complete disaster.

I hate my body, I hate my voice, I hate everything that circles around me. Basically I just hate my life.

Oh and I have to go to a shrink every day after class. My mum thinks it will get me better talking about my problems. Bullshit no it won’t. It will only make it worse.

I just wanna get away from everything and everyone and start over. I know we just moved but I am not going to take it. I just know it. School, making new friends, trying to keep up with the shrink… It’s just too much pressure.

I wanna go to somewhere new. Somewhere unknown. Alone.

There it goes. My mum is bugging me again.

Sigh

Why is everything so hard ?!

Drea .xx

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(A/N: Hiiii guys !!! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of "Dear Diary". I have been wanting to write a story like this for a very long time and when I finally got the time, I did it and here's the result. This was a short chapter I know, but I promise the next ones will be much longer and more exciting. I have a goal: 10 votes and I'll post Chapter 2. Share it with your friends, ask people on twitter to vote whatever. 10 likes and you'll have Chapter 2 in your hands. Have a nice weekend .xx)