Dear Diary [h.s. au]

Chapter Twenty-Seven.

(A/N: DON'T FREAK OUT AT THE END OKAY BECAUSE I DID AND I WOKE UP MY PARENTS SIGH)

 Make sure you read the previous chapter or this one won't make any sense :)

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“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

“Huh… When did you… hm… start developing feelings towards me?”

Harry chuckled. – “I will be very honest with you. At first, I thought you were this obnoxious, infuriating girl who didn’t think about anyone but herself. But as my mum and your mum explained to me what was going on with you, I changed my mind and wanted to help. That was basically how it started.”

“Yeah, ok but when ? Like, in what situation?”

He blushed. – “Huh, well it was when we were in your room lying on the bed listening to the sounds of Nature.” – He started playing with my fingers. – “I took your hand in mine trying to comfort you. What a failure.” – He chuckled shaking his head a bit.

“I was in a bad place that time, I just wanted everyone away from me.”

“I know, that’s why I insisted. Every time you pushed me away, I had the urge to come back. And it made my feelings grow.”

I was practically looking like a tomato right now.

“I have such an effect on you, it’s incredible.” – Harry said cupping my cheek.

“Shut up.” – I swat his hand away and cleared my throat. – “How did you and Emily start dating?”

“Well, as Zayn was being the asshole we all know very well, I started to grow fond of her. We’d hang out during lunch breaks, we’d study together… The basic, I guess. She knew I had a crush on her. God, she loved to tease me.” – He closed his eyes and when he re-opened them, they were a bit darker. – “I was always this super confident guy, so I wasn’t uncomfortable with flirting with her and tease her back as well. Christ, the things I’ve done to win her…”

“What did you do?”

“I made her jealous by kissing other girls in front of her. That always worked, unbelievable. She’d call me at the end of the night asking me for a ride. We’d end up making out or worse in the back of my car.”

“Wait, hold on, at what age did you lose your virginity?”

“15. With a girl from my gym class. Damn she was fit.” – He sighed. – “That doesn’t matter anymore. She only wanted someone to fuck and I just wanted to lose my virginity. It was a win for both sides.”

Boys will be boys.

I waited 3 fucking years to finally find someone who I could really trust and give myself to and he just fucked the first hot girl he saw.

“What about you ?”

“Me ? I was 17. It was with Louis.” – I shrugged. – “But tell me more about you and Emily.”

“Well, eventually I got tired of teasing and flirting so I just asked her to be my girlfriend. I couldn’t think of anybody else but her. We dated for a few months only but I was never so happy.”

“But I just don’t understand something… Why do you and Zayn hate each other so much? What did she do?”

His fists clenched. – “She didn’t do anything. It was him. All him. He tried countless times to win her, to steal her with his charm as the bullying didn’t work. She always rejected him. Until…” – His jaw closed and his face hardened.