Dear Diary [h.s. au]

Chapter Forty-Four.

(A/N: This is not edited, so I apologize for the typos.)

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DREA’S POV

“What did just happen?” – Louis closed the door behind him.

“I’m not quite sure…” – I looked behind him to the door raising a brow.

“Did you guys fight?” – He stepped closer to me.

I nodded.

“What did he say to you?” – He took his hands in mine entangling our fingers together.

“I love you.“– He shouted. – “God damn it Drea, I’ve always loved you! I’ve loved you ever since that day we were lying on the bed listening to the sounds of Nature back at my house when you stayed there. I fell in love with you so quickly and so hard I didn’t know where to turn to. You turned my life upside down.”

I shook my head taking his words out of my head. – “Nothing important.”

“Are you sure? He seemed pretty upset and I can see you’re upset as well.”

“I’m fine, Lou. Trust me.”

“I do trust you. Come here.” – He opened his arms and pulled me into a tight yet comfortable hug. – “I am here if you need me you know that don’t you?” – He said against my hair.

“I do.” – I nod and bury my face in his neck, tears already filling my eyes.

“Shhh don’t cry. Tell me what happened.” – He petted my hair, kissing my temple every now and then.

“H-H-He told me he loved me a-a-and we argued because I was selfish and didn’t think about him a-a-and because I hooked up with y-y-you.” – I sobbed and cried more in his arms.

“I’m sorry.” – He hugged me tighter.

“Why are you apologizing?” – I leaned back to face him confused.

“This is all my fault. I should have never tried to be something more with you.”

“No. Lou, it’s not your fault.”

“Yes it is.”

“No, it’s not. It’s both mine and Harry’s. He made mistake after mistake and I just tried to forget him in the worst way possible.”

“What are you trying to say here?”

“Lou, you know I love you. I’ve always loved you, but I don’t love you the same way I used to anymore. Yes, I still feel my heart flutter whenever I see you and I feel happy around you but that is it. My feelings for you aren’t so strong anymore.”

Louis didn’t utter a word for a few minutes. I stared at him waiting for a movement or just a word.

When he spoke, he didn’t seem shocked. – “I kinda knew this would happen eventually. I mean, last night was incredible I told you I loved you, which I do a whole freaking lot, but I knew you didn’t fully mean it when you said it. And that’s ok I was actually prepared for it to happen already. I’ve always known you were in love with Harry no matter how hard you tried to hide it.”

“I’m sorry.” – I hugged him.

“Don’t be, it’s ok. I am just glad you told me before we both got into something more serious. It would make some serious damage.” – He buried his face in my hair.