Dear Diary [h.s. au]

Chapter Nine.

(A/N: This is still on Drea's POV. Ok, enjoy and don't forget to read the note at the end ! .xx)

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I sat down under the tree near the lake. This would be my spot from now on. It relaxed me and I could get away from everything.

It felt like paradise being here. All you could hear were the sounds of Nature and nothing more. No screams, no arguing, no nothing.

I closed my eyes.

I missed my Lou, I missed Kim, I missed living on my own… I missed my whole life.

 Kim was my best friend since primary school. We met over a food fight. She was sweet, I loved her like a sister. We were supposed to live together if I hadn’t been childish one night.

A creepy shiver went down my spine.

And I still remember when I first met Louis. It was on the first day of high school…

 

Flashback

I have no idea where I’m going. Kim is not here, we’re not from the same class so she’s already in her building.

Fuck, was I supposed to go right or left ?

“Hi, you seem a bit lost. Can I help you?” – I turned around to see the most beautiful guy I have ever laid my eyes on.

His eyes were what captivated me the most.

“Hm. Hi, yes. I am looking for the laboratories. I have biology on the first period.”

“Wait, are you from class 10A ?”

“Yes, why?”

“We’re on the same class! My name’s Louis, what’s yours love?”

“A-A-Andrea.”

“Nice to meet you, Drea. Now let’s go to class.”

It was the very first time someone had made up a nickname for me. My mum always called me by my full name.

He was definitely something special.

The nickname kinda clicked after that. Kim always called me D, so now I had two nicknames.

I remember introducing her to Louis during lunch break and she almost choked on her sandwich. She said he was hotter than fried butter.

You couldn’t understand that girl.

We became inseparable until I started having feelings towards Louis. He was always so sweet to me even being a jackass some other times.

I had dated a few guys before him but they were nothing special. Besides, they were only using me. I was kinda used to it but it hurt nevertheless.

Me and Louis started dating a month after my 16th birthday and after Kim had left us. He had been my rock, my anchor through all of what had happened. And I think that’s what made me fall in love with him even more.

Even knowing I was hurting badly, Louis prepared the most romantic evening for us two. I never knew he could be such a gentleman but that night surely overcame my expectations.

But with what had happened to Kim, I just couldn’t give myself to someone not even loving them as much as I loved Louis.

I didn’t speak for months, I just nodded my head whenever someone asked me a question. It was a bit frustrating to Louis. Being my boyfriend was exhausting. We hadn’t kissed yet, I just didn’t let him. I felt dirty for what I did to Kim and I couldn’t let anyone taste my dirtiness.