Dear Diary [h.s. au]

Chapter Fourteen.

(A/N: Guys... You're gonna cry. I am not kidding, even I cried. Read the note at the end, enjoy .xx)

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DREA’S POV

What the hell did I just do ?! I made him fall in love with me, I made a mistake by kissing him back.

I just ruin everything no matter how hard I try not to.

I was driving for a quite a while now but I didn’t care. I just needed to be away from there for a moment. I needed to think without Anne or Harry near me, especially him. He was the reason of all this.

My mind is a complete mess.

Finally I spotted the sign that said “Welcome to Doncaster.” How I missed this small town.

I drove through my old neighborhood. Everything was the same.

My old house was still empty and Louis' was just… crowded.

It’s a Sunday so it’s normal that Johannah has her family over.

I drove straight to the graveyard. I know his body wasn’t there but I wanted to talk to him somehow. I don’t know this sounds so weird.

I parked my car and went looking for his grave.

“Louis William Tomlinson

1991 – 2012

Beloved son, brother and friend.

You’ll be missed.”

They didn’t even bother to put boyfriend in there.

I sighed and sat down next to it.

“I miss you so much.” – I started. – “I just wish you could be really here. I think I am falling for another person Louis, and I don’t want to. I don’t want to let you go yet. His name is Harry and he’s the sweetest guy I have ever met. Well, besides you of course. He listens to me, he actually cares which surprises me the most. He has a rough past as well but I still haven’t got a clue on what it is. I don’t want to drag him into my mess, Lou. It’s too much for him to handle. I tried to push him away, I really did but he always comes back. And now I’m too attached to him, I can’t let him go. I consider him my friend, but I think there is something more. I don’t know how to explain it, but I guess I am starting to feel the same way when it was you. I’m so sorry Louis, I didn’t want to forget you and I never will. You will always stay in my heart you know that don’t you?” – I stared at his picture. I sighed. – “Of course you don’t. You can’t hear me. I love you Louis.”

“Drea? What are you doing here?” – I looked up to see Louis’ mum Johannah standing there with one of Louis’ sisters.

“I…Hm… Hi. I was just visiting.” – I stood up and grabbed my bag.

“I haven’t seen you since… Well… You look good.” – She smiled at me.

“You too…” – I looked at her round belly. Was she-

“Yes, I’m pregnant. It’s twins.” – Her smile grew even more.

“Congratulations, I am really happy for you.” – I was so confused right now. Didn’t she hate me?